Non Self Harm Calendar!

[OnlyByTheNight.]

Well done for holding back. Not many people would have been able to do that. You are very strong. Congrats on going for so long! :D

Me? Ammm like 3 days.

[MysticalBurrito]

52 days i think?

[ackmedsgirl666]

1 week today yay me:)

[Project Delta]

Same as me justcracken :)

[kt2369]

i am 11 days free. It has been tough, I owe it to my friends... they arnt there for me when i really need them like now.

[MuseDae]

Two months on the 7th! I'm so excited. I've wanted to, but I've resisted [thanks to my best friend always being there for me]

[BeautifulSilence]

9 days. Interview tomorrow. It'd better be worth it.

[Flutterfly]

5 months tomorrow. Almost did last night, couldn't think of any reason not to, so I searched it online and found this forum. Other wise I'd probably have ruined my 5 months.

[NightFighter]

5 months tomorrow. Almost did last night, couldn't think of any reason not to, so I searched it online and found this forum. Other wise I'd probably have ruined my 5 months.

WOW! 5 months!
Omgeeez congratulations!
Thats such a long time, well done
Keep it up! dont give up.

[GreyxRainbow]

Everyone, you're doing great! Keep going! :hug:

Me? 38 days.

[Becky]

Cut free for a few days :D Going strong having a pretty good time at the minute

[NightFighter]

:d :d

[Project Delta]

1 day but i'm probs gonna cut... friend called me a loner who likes to sit in a corner and slit my wrists..... he doesnt know :'(

[Triceratops]

40 days

[GreyxRainbow]

39 days.

[NightFighter]

1 day but i'm probs gonna cut... friend called me a loner who likes to sit in a corner and slit my wrists..... he doesnt know :'(

Please dont cut :(

[BeautifulSilence]

10 days.

[DarkWingedAngel]

10 days
(i think)

[kt2369]

its been 13 days for me(: i almost did last night, i dont know why i didnt, but thats good~
my record is 14 days of not cutting.

[BuryYourFlame]

61 days :P

[MysticalBurrito]

One day :(

[Miss Punk]

Last time was two days!

[GreyxRainbow]

40 days. Everyone is doing great! :hug:

[Project Delta]

day 1

[Flutterfly]

1 day, but it's always hardest at night

[Project Delta]

2 days

[BeautifulSilence]

Meh. 13.

[ackmedsgirl666]

almost 2 weeks yay
these last ones scarred rele bad and now every time i look at my arms i feel sad

[DarkWingedAngel]

11 days for me

[Lights]

Keep going guys, you can do this!

[ShatteredWings]

*huggles all*

3wks yesterday.

[Flutterfly]

I'm at 2 1/2 days (3 tonight) =] I hope I don't give in soon... it's getting harder.

[MysticalBurrito]

:) :hug: You can do it!


I think its been three days for me...*sigh*
I hate starting over...

[Flutterfly]

:) :hug: You can do it!


I think its been three days for me...*sigh*
I hate starting over...

Starting over fails. =[
But at least you're trying... right?
I forgot how hard it was to start over... v-v

[GreyxRainbow]

I believe in you all. :hug: You can do it. :)

It's 42 for me.

[ErykaInspire.]

8 Months...
Almost relapsed two days ago, but my pride got the best of me :D

[Project Delta]

4 days? idk

[Flutterfly]

I almost cut earlier... it was so hard!
I had siccors out and everything, I'm not even sure why I stopped before I did...
I'm still at 3 days.

[Holding On*]

I am new to the site... I have been 5 days today cut free... I see a counsellor once a week... today I just told her about the harm. She is going to be passing me onto someone new. Someone more 'trained in that area'. I will be starting group therapy with other self harmers... I am scared... but I want to do it. I want to beat this addiction.

I went 9 days last week with no harm but the had a lapse. I want to at least beat that.

[GreyxRainbow]

Welcome! I hope you'll be able to make it. =) You're doing great so far. :hug:

Everyone here is doing great. :hug:

I'm currently on 43 days. :]

[Project Delta]

5 days? yeah 5

[OnlyByTheNight.]

4 days.... Seems like way longer though.

[BlackenedSilver]

Im on day 5.
Congrats everyone keep it up!

[Rutherford The Brave]

Just hit the 2 month mark.

[kt2369]

its been 16 days(:
the only thing that stops me is that my best friend judges me for it and says im gross :/

[Atonement]

One month and 6 days

Almost 5 weeks

[Project Delta]

Well done vindication. but 1 month 6 days only = nearly 5 weeks if its february! :)

[BeautifulSilence]

<3 Everyone's doing awesome!

Err. Two weeks, plus.. two days. Oh! 16 days :)

:hug2:

[gorgeousgrief]

20 weeks today.
4 months and 3 weeks, for those people who like it in months. :)

[Project Delta]

wtg laura, 16 my lucky number ^^,
6 for me
20 weeks!? Welll done!!! wtg!!

[goin to work]

um 2 weeks before that 8 months

[Holding On*]

Well. 7 days today... (but it is only 10am); however I am not sure if it is really or if it would be 1 day today... last night I was looking at my scars and I found one on my thigh, and I was thinking about everything, and there was a mark on my leg from here I had been sitting and I was tracing my finger along it; before I knew I was scratching at it... cutting it... I didn't do it on purpose... It was subcounicous. I sat there thinking Why am I doing this? I need to stop. I have to Stop, and after a few seconds I did. I am quite amazed I stopped myself to be honest. That was really hard to do. So yeh. Not sure if technically I am at 1 or 7... =/

[Project Delta]

day 7 dude, just try and stay positive,
1 week for me doctors for depression...... yay?

[Flutterfly]

I'm on day 6! =D It's almost been a week!
And I told my friend... because she helped me before with it...
I was so afraid she'd be mad... but she just said she loved me! =D

[Project Delta]

Good to hear Eli, omg, dad just yelled at me and yellled at me

[NightFighter]

:( I need to get my razor.

Its been 84 days now but i cant handle it anymore.
Ive screwed up again but i didnt think i did but everyone kept telling me i did and is blaming it on me so now i need to cut. I really really do. I cant get through tonight. Not another night staying awake trying to resist. I have dreams about cutting every night. I cant get it outta my head. :(

I thought i was getting better.

[kt2369]

NightFighter you have gone so many days, dont let it start over

[The Batman]

13 days I actually resisted one of the strongest urges I've had it's so unreal but i still feel like shit.

[Project Delta]

Well Done thomas, Keep it up!!
Night fighter. Come on, try and think positive and block them out!! keep it up your doing so well
8 days

[NightFighter]

I didnt cut :)

I still want to though.

These urges are 24/7 now :(

[Flutterfly]

It's been a week! =D
I wanted to so bad earlier.
I had the razor in my hand... but I didn't.

[Project Delta]

Well done eli! Keep it up!

[Holding On*]

... zero days...

...first time that i have cried in over a month now...

cutting took the place of tears but now I have both again...

BBC has a good show about self harm that I watched on IPLAYER earlier... It triggered me, but it also helped. I am only crying now because I harmed myself again. I am dissapointed in myself, and I am scaared. I feel so scared. I know it is wrong to do it... but I find myself not caring/being able to stop...

I am getting help though.


On wednesday I opened up to the counsellor I already see, about it. I wrote 2 pages on it and gave her it, however there was soooo much more I could have wrote.

She is reffering me to another counsellor who runs a self harm group...

I hope it can help


I don't understand any of it...


Right now it feels unreal.

It feels like I havn't done it... like it isn't me...

I just don't understand anymore....

I don't understand life.



EDIT:-Also the song playing at the moment, I love but its kinda triggering for me now too... - You could be a hero - http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aNlZz3RQxos&feature=related

[Project Delta]

Sorry to hear that lifeisamaze, we are always here if you need to talk
9 days for me

[OnlyByTheNight.]

1week and 1day. Thanks to Calum, I would have done it last night if it wasn't for him keeping me from. So thank you so much. :D

[Triceratops]

48 days.

[Project Delta]

Well done Marci! Keep it up! :) And onlybythenight, + Thanks for the rep

[Cloud]

1week and 1day. Thanks to Calum, I would have done it last night if it wasn't for him keeping me from. So thank you so much. :D

always happy to help out Eve

[Project Delta]

9th day, and guess what, went on a 14 mile bikeride in a short sleeve shirt, so my scars were visible, feel so much happier

[Zero Beat]

2 hours

[Project Delta]

Awe *hugs cool dude* YOu can do it! Shouldnt you also be asleep?

[Zero Beat]

Awe *hugs cool dude* YOu can do it! Shouldnt you also be asleep?

thxs =) here in aussie land its only 9:25 am... my time is wrong... PM thats better XD

[Holding On*]

Sorry to hear that lifeisamaze, we are always here if you need to talk
9 days for me

Thanks. :)




And 4 minutes...

[BeautifulSilence]

OMG. Three weeks Tuesday... This is exciting again ^_^ Hmm. Twenty-one minus two is nineteen. Woop!

Everyone is doing awesomely. :hug2: for all!

[Flutterfly]

It's been 8 days... seems like longer because of how hard it is though.

[MysticalBurrito]

*sigh* one week today hate the fact I caved over the stupidest thing...

[NightFighter]

*sigh* one week today hate the fact I caved over the stupidest thing...

Dont think of it as a failure, just try to last a little longer this time. Before you self harm write down of the reason why you are doing it, is it worth it? Gradually, things that seemed worth it before, wont seem worth it now.
Good luck :)

[BuryYourFlame]

everyone is doing awesomely :D

im not even gonna bother counting how long it has been for me :P

but...i wish i could say i am over it...but about 85% of this week has seen me wanting to...so bad...

[Project Delta]

I like your new sig Te never cycle (forgot your name >.<) but crysis is terrible imo :)

10 days, and karina we are all here if you need to talk, and welll done laura , Eli and the never cycle :)

[ackmedsgirl666]

i have managed to control my urges
i really at times want to cut but if i do i lose all respect for myself
so for the record 3 weeks
but probably will cave within the next few days...

[NightFighter]

i have managed to control my urges
i really at times want to cut but if i do i lose all respect for myself
so for the record 3 weeks
but probably will cave within the next few days...


Stay positive, you can do it! :]
Well done for controlling your urges.

[NightFighter]

Last night my sister and her boyfriend found out that i self harm. The only guy i trusted told them. I found out that my sister also self harms. (My family is pretty screwed up). So much pressure has been lifted from me. I was terrified about going on my holiday because my scars are noticeable but if they both know then i only have to hide them from my mum. I could have died when she asked me if i self harmed. Seriously, my heart was going crazy and i felt paralyzed. It kinda feels more acceptable to self harm though, which isnt too good if i want to recover from it.
Anyway, its been 86 days i think. Trying to get to 100 :)

[Project Delta]

You WILL do it Night Fighter! :)

[Flutterfly]

9 days, I almost caved last night.
Today is the day that is going to try me the most. =s

[GreyxRainbow]

48 days. I really want to get to 50, but I'm so tired. Just tired of trying to control everything.

[Project Delta]

Keep it up greyx, come on you can do it!. I nearly caved today, but then something great happened. day 10 is gonna end well :)

[OnlyByTheNight.]

9 days..... And man it has been a LONG 9 days! I want to reach 14 though. That my goal for now.

Well done everyone else. Keep it up greyxrainbow.

[MysticalBurrito]

9ish days here :(

[Project Delta]

Awe *hugs karina* 1 month is my target so 18 more days ^^

[The Joker]

9ish days here :(

Yay Karina!

[Holding On*]

2 days... third time of restarting... :(

[Project Delta]

11days. at school with short sleeve shirts, scars on show ^_^

[MysticalBurrito]

Wow you has moxy :)
10 days I think

[NightFighter]

0 days :(

[optimashprime]

48 days. I really want to get to 50, but I'm so tired. Just tired of trying to control everything.

hold on my friend i have faith in you hold on

[optimashprime]

everyone here

you can do anything that you want

have faith in your selfs and in family and freinds you can do it

if anyone ever needs help pm me please and i will help

[Project Delta]

I'm sorry nightfigter! *hugs you tight*,

[NightFighter]

I'm sorry nightfigter! *hugs you tight*,

Thanks :whoops:

[GreyxRainbow]

0 days :(

I feel so sorry for you! *many many hugs* :hug:

hold on my friend i have faith in you hold on
Thank you for believing in me. :]

[Project Delta]

You can do it Greyx :) we all believe in you :)

[NightFighter]

we all believe in you :)

You can do it :)

[GreyxRainbow]

Thank you all. That really means a lot to me. :]

[NightFighter]

:hug:

[Project Delta]

day 12 for me, i nearly caved today... was so close.

[GreyxRainbow]

I'm glad you didn't. Well done! :hug:

[NightFighter]

:) It so damn hard to resist so well done!
Stay strong. :)

[Project Delta]

Yeah, thanks guys :) *hugs you both tight*

[NightFighter]

*Group Hug(?)* :D

I need a hug...

[BlackenedSilver]

Hugs for all :) :hug:
I think everyone here can use one. :P

day 12 for me, i nearly caved today... was so close.

It's day 12 for me too :eek: *High fives*
I could so easily cave right now, give into every urge. But everyone thinks im totally over this, I want them to be right.

[kt2369]

its been 22 days.
right now im about to do it...
All i have to do is wait... and see if any of my friends give a fuck and call me..
i may be betraying ALOT of people but i cant take it

[Project Delta]

Same leigh, day 13, 3:40am and i just woke up... dont ask.

Cutter how did it go!?

[kt2369]

well i decided not to do it. someone called(:
even if knowone did i decided i wouldnt im proud

[Project Delta]

Well done man! i'm proud of yoiu too!

[chelsay13]

4 monthes tomorrow!

[Project Delta]

Way to go cheslea keep it up! :)

[GreyxRainbow]

*hugs*

:hug:

Day 50! I made it! =D

[Project Delta]

Way to go GreyX
13 days for me, unlucky day for you supersticious peoples
^,_,^ vampire :)

[GreyxRainbow]

13 days is good. It's almost two weeks! :] :hug:

[NightFighter]

:D Yay! You should treat yourself when you get to 2 weeks! :D
Thats great Aaron! Im so glad your doing so well!
p.s nice name :)

[Project Delta]

Cheers Sarah ^^, my true goal is 1 month though so 2 more weeks.

[NightFighter]

Aah you'll manage that! :)

[Project Delta]

Thanks :) i hope i will ^^

[NightFighter]

Well, you know where to come if you ever need support or just a distraction :)

[GreyxRainbow]

Aaron, I believe you can do it, really. :hug:

[optimashprime]

you can all do what ever you want to if you set your mind to it

good luck all

[Project Delta]

Heya, all, Hugs to EVERYONE out there, Especially Greyx, Sarah and Elliot ^^
14 days tomorrow, 1/2 way to my goal

[optimashprime]

good luck

thanks for the hug

[NightFighter]

:cuddle:

[MysticalBurrito]

I almost caved this morning...
Thank God I buried my razors :)
Day 10? I think =/

[Project Delta]

Well done for not caving Karina, and well done on the burrying the blades, thats great!

[optimashprime]

as tesco says "every little helps"

[GreyxRainbow]

I almost caved this morning...
Thank God I buried my razors :)
Day 10? I think =/

Well done for not caving. :] And for burying your razors. :]
*hug*

[Holding On*]

Almost lapsed last night but I managed not to... Not sure how i didn't as I was reallllyyy going to do it about three times last night =/

But I think I am on something stupily small like 3 days... my record is 9... =/

[Project Delta]

3 days is 1/3 of your best, therefore it is still really good! i'm on 13 still... damn this day is haaaard

[GreyxRainbow]

^What Aaron said. =)

:hug:

[Holding On*]

Thanks for the comments but I have to edit it to 0 days...

[NightFighter]

Aww im sorry lifeisamaze *hugs*

[Project Delta]

Sad to hear that mate but *sings* Always look on the bright side of life *do do, do do do do do do*

[Project Delta]

Two weeks yayayyayay

[OnlyByTheNight.]

12 days I think.... Makes no difference. I'm going to cut soon.... I can't ignore these urges for much longer!

[Cloud]

12 days I think.... Makes no difference. I'm going to cut soon.... I can't ignore these urges for much longer!

No you wont Eve were all backing you
well i know i am anyway :)

[Project Delta]

I second what Cloud says! :)

[optimashprime]

12 days I think.... Makes no difference. I'm going to cut soon.... I can't ignore these urges for much longer!

hold on you can fight this

focus your mind on good things and left your pain fade away

if you ever need anything pm me and ill do my best to help

good luck
elliot

[Flutterfly]

I am at 12 days. =]
I've been happier since I joined swim team...
But the last two days have been rough.
I've been crying a lot. =[
I really hope I don't give in.
I want to be done, so bad!

[optimashprime]

hold on fight this

its good that you joined something that you like it will help distract you alot

well done

[Holding On*]

Thanks for the sympthay. the last week or so, i have been feeling like 'what is the point of stopping' etc... like i dont see why is hould stop becaue it is not effecting anyone else other then me, I am in control as I can resist the urge when I really want to, and vice versa....

Meh..

20 hours.

[Project Delta]

2 weeks, nearly 15 days.

i just had a breakthrough
went outside, said "fuck this" threw my blade on someones roof

[BlackenedSilver]

Keep it up everyone, your all doing great! I know you can all beat this :D

Since it is past Midnight Im classing it as 15 days :P
There's a large chance that it could all go up in flames tomorrow night though, hopefully it won't.

[ShatteredWings]

Three or four days..

i'm not good with spefics until it hits a full week/month

Something else i realized, ... if i hadn't relaped, next monday would have been five weeks...

[Project Delta]

15 days, no razor, feeling great

[optimashprime]

well done all

keep on going

life is too precious to be wasted (no offence)

good luck

all my love
elliot

[NightFighter]

Aaron - over 2 weeks! Yay! Congratulations!

[GreyxRainbow]

Aaron, you're over two weeks! =]

BlackenedSilver, Eli and all the others, you can do it. :hug:

I'm currently on 53 days. I had a horrible moment today, but it passed and I didn't cut.

[Project Delta]

Well done Greyx!! :)

i am gonna make it to 1 monthh, then 5 weeks ... etc. etc. then 1 year eventually :) and be here the whole time, keeping an eye on all of you's :)

[Flutterfly]

2 weeks tomorrow!

[Project Delta]

Well done Eli' keep it up! :) You can do it :)

[optimashprime]

Aaron, you're over two weeks! =]

BlackenedSilver, Eli and all the others, you can do it. :hug:

I'm currently on 53 days. I had a horrible moment today, but it passed and I didn't cut.

well done 53 days and you resisted the temptation well done

[Project Delta]

16 days!!! :)

[peaceloverugby]

1 day but I'm not gonna make it much farther

[Holding On*]

One day. Didn't cut last night which is very surprising seeing as I have cut every night since Tuesday.

[Project Delta]

Well done Steph Keep it up!

Going to get my weights today, YAY

[Holding On*]

Don't see the point in writing on here anymore cos i am not exactly giving up am i?

[Project Delta]

Yeah you will, with help, So stop being negative and jump on the quitting bandwagon ^^

[Holding On*]

Negative is all I know...Negative is normal for me

[NightFighter]

Well then, try to make it abnormal. Make positivity normal. :)
You can do. Just try to think positively.
I agree, i think you should hop on the quitting Bandwagon! xD

[Holding On*]

I don't see the point to be honest.

[Project Delta]

Trust me, okay this sounds like crap but it works and its not one of those chain messages xD

Think more positively, every day, write a list of what your grateful for, and then imagine yourself without cuts, and slowly it will help you. It helped me stay off it for 6 weeks. Then i ran into some REALLY bad stuff, but try it for us please!?

[Holding On*]

Tried it in the past. Just went and had a bath. Turns out that my brother had used majority of hot water up in washing up earlier... so it was a cold bath. I didnt wash though. Or even wash my hair. I sat there. With my Shaver. And took it to pieces... etc. etc. etc. You get the picture of what happened. It calmed me down. And even now my brothers are in the next room shouting and screaming at each other but i dont care. i done even feel angry. i am calm. i dont see why i should stop when it has this effect on me. If i hadnt, i would be screaming back at them right now. surly that is a good thing

[Project Delta]

But your hurting your beautiful body.... cant you see that? it hurts me for you to say you dont want to stop ='(

[Flutterfly]

Today is my two week mark. yay...
I was really uspet last night and wanted SO bad to cut...
I couldn't though because I knew I had a swim meet in the morning and wouldn't be able to hide the scars...

[Holding On*]

I don't have a beautiful body. It doesn't make any difference - having scars. I actually like them. I like looking at them. I have a really nice one on my finger at the moment from cutting it with my own nails. Impressive. And I have two days worth on my hips (words) that will scar beautifully when they have healed. One of which was the one I done in the bath. :)

[peaceloverugby]

Two days...but I definitely shouldn't have cut all those words right where the elastic on my boxers rubs against my hip, it hurts

[GreyxRainbow]

54 days. I counted wrong friday.

[Project Delta]

Well done greyx, Does it matter? NO your staying strong! 17 days! 11 away from my 1 month mark

[GreyxRainbow]

Yes.. I am. But I don't know for how long. Anyways, I'm off to church now. :hug: You're doing great Aaron.

[Project Delta]

You too, wish i knew your name! :hug:

[Zephyr]

10 weeks
Just a week until I reach my goal.

[Triceratops]

55 days.

[Project Delta]

well done marci!!! well done Epiphany! :)

[GreyxRainbow]

You too, wish i knew your name! :hug:

Rebecca. =]

Marci, Epiphany, you're both doing great. :hug:

[Project Delta]

Awe sweet name! :), Mind if i call ya becca?

[GreyxRainbow]

Awe sweet name! :), Mind if i call ya becca?

No problem. =)

[Project Delta]

Cool 2 more posts til my 500, btw 17 days , 11 more to my goal! :)

[GreyxRainbow]

You already have 500! Congrats!

[Project Delta]

Well i do now ^^

11 days til target eep

[Atonement]

47 days.

[Project Delta]

Well done Addison!:)

[NightFighter]

em..... 2 days i think.
Its strange how i went over 80 days without, now lasting one day is too hard.

[peaceloverugby]

Three days, but the pressure is building steady

[OnlyByTheNight.]

One (very long) day.

[Project Delta]

Well done eve :hug:

[MysticalBurrito]

15 days =] I think

[Flutterfly]

16 days... extremely tempted to give in right now...

[Project Delta]

C0me on eli' ya can do it! :)

18 for me

Karina well done! just dont catch up with me! :P If thats possible?

[GreyxRainbow]

Everyone is doing great. =) I'm happy to see that.

I had to do a presentation today, but the teacher said I couldn't do it and then he said it was my fault, but I didn't get why. I hate presentations and I was f*cking nervous, and then he got angry at me. I just wanted to cut, and I almost just put my nails in my arm, but I didn't.

So it's 55 days now. :]

[Project Delta]

WELL DONE Becca! :) So proud of you
18 days

[Holding On*]

2 days including today but will go down to 0 soon

[OnlyByTheNight.]

2 really hard days. I really hope things get easier soon.

[Project Delta]

Strange the first few days are the easiest for me

[emmalovesgs]

i havent since sunday and im not finding it tooo hard :D well done everyone elsee as well you're all doing ace :)