Non Self Harm Calendar!

[Amaryllis]

Day 0. It doesn't hurt anymore. I need to cut deeper but I'm scared.

[SilentlyCrying]

17 days. :3

[georgiamay]

Day 47 I think?

[ShatteredWings]

last cut was in march.

so it's been 5mo.

So close to 6mo mark. So close to breaking
:eyeroll:

[Malcolm Tucker]

Eighteen days thus far. Surprised I've not snapped given the last 3 days or so, but it wouldn't surprise me if I did tonight. Ah well.

[moon_lit_angel]

tis 78 days today..!!

Michael your doing so well keep it up :)

[Magenta]

Day 1.

Let's see what else life and my anxiety throw at me tonight.

[Fourth Dimension]

In 31 days I will be cut free for a year!

Sent from my Vortex using Tapatalk

[bobby1273]

day 1 ... feels weird because I'm not cutting today outta respect for a family friend who has gone through so much and come out stronger.

[AppealToReason]

Day 1.

[xdancing_for_rainx]

back to day 0

[Amaryllis]

Don't give up on yourselves, fishies(sorry what we called each other in this Ana recovery site)

Jo, don't kick the shoe off before it is. You don't know if it's gonna suck and if you think it is, well, it most probably will.

Appeal to reason, keep going, we'll do it together :) feel free to rant or anything, one sided conversations suck.

Shattered wings, keep going. Don't give up now.

And day 1 :)

[CyanideGoodnight]

Day 20! Ten more days until I reach my goal of one month! :D

:hug: Hugs for everyone!!!! Keep up the amazing work, you can do it!

[rukia_yua]

technically day 1...but give me 5minutes and its back today 0

[rukia_yua]

day 0

[Kaius]

26 weeks 4 days.
Kathy has been self harm free for 36 days too :)

[Amaryllis]

Well done Kaius and Kathy and everyone else :) Keep it up.

Ahhh... I'm ashamed to say: Double day 0.

[Magenta]

Day 2.

[Amaryllis]

Day 1. Gonna try real hard to make it stay that way. But my sperm donator's here so I don't know. Faith and trust.

[1_21Guns]

day 28, and so the battle begins again.

[xdancing_for_rainx]

day 1...

[CyanideGoodnight]

Day twenty one! Three weeks! Take it one day at a time and keep going everyone, your all doing amazing, I'm proud of you :hug:

[Love.Hate]

day 28, and so the battle begins again.

That's really good, keep going Nat <3

Day 21. 3 weeks :)

[FullyAlive]

26 weeks 4 days.
Kathy has been self harm free for 36 days too :)

Yay well done to both of you :D



Day 21. 3 weeks :)

Well done! Keep going, three weeks is great :)

[Malcolm Tucker]

Aaaand back to day 0 once again.

[georgiamay]

Day 49 :eek:

[Magenta]

Day 3.

[UnknownError]

74 days. o;

[moon_lit_angel]

Day 80


Keep going connor :) We'll reach 100 together :)



Has decided to go travelling next summer

[Love.Hate]

Day 0. Oh well at least I got as far as 22 days, furthest I had been in a while :/

[xdancing_for_rainx]

day 2 :o

[Malcolm Tucker]

Still day 0.

[Magenta]

Day 0.

[anonymous53]

Jocelyn, why? You were doing so well.

[Infidelitas]

i just worked out, day 35 xD

[Amaryllis]

Day 2

EDIT: Day 0

[anonymous53]

Day 38... Probably going to end up being day 0... No reason not to..

[dontcare97]

I wasn't doing this from the beginning but I'm going to start now.

Day 6

[moon_lit_angel]

Day 81

[xdancing_for_rainx]

day 3 :confused:

[goneghost]

Day 8.

[Magenta]

Still day 0.

EDIT: Double day 0. I don't trust myself to leave it at that.
EDIT OF EDIT: Fuck it. I'm done trying.

[Malcolm Tucker]

Day 1 i guess. Wouldn't count on it though.

[CyanideGoodnight]

Day twenty three, thanks for the support and encouragement guys <3

keep going everyone :hug:

[dontcare97]

day 7

[moon_lit_angel]

Day 82

keep going everyone x

[Skyhawk]

Wow, haven't posted here in a while.

Nearly blew it today.

Day 8.

[Love.Hate]

Day 1

[FullyAlive]

Starting to stop, again. I need to look semi stable for my counsellor, and the psychiatrist. I don't really want to stop otherwise ><

Day 1.

[Amaryllis]

Day 1 :)

Keep it up, fishies

[UnknownError]

76, keep going everyone! :)

[SilentlyCrying]

Day 21 becomes day 0. But the time spans are getting longer.

[xdancing_for_rainx]

going on day 4

[SilentlyCrying]

8 hours.
Seems wimpy, but then again,
aren't I wimpy?

[Painted_Indian_Horse]

day 2. for like the millionth time -.-

[Amaryllis]

Day 2 haha

[Magenta]

Day... 1? May not stay like it. I keep looking at yesterday's cuts. Keep thinking I should make more.

[ShadowGirl]

1 week :)

[CyanideGoodnight]

Day 24... six days until day 30...

[xdancing_for_rainx]

day 0.
no surprise.

[Love.Hate]

Day 2

[UnknownError]

77 days.

[FullyAlive]

Day 2 already faltering, craving ><

[SilentlyCrying]

22 hours.

[Magenta]

Day... 2.

[Aubrie]

1 year, 9 months, 5 days.

Or 643 days.

[LittlePaperStars]

One day...I relapsed 6 days ago. I hope to make it to two days. :) Maybe more?

[Malcolm Tucker]

Day 2.

[moon_lit_angel]

83 :/

[xktx]

6 days :) I love my boyfriend :) x

[FullyAlive]

So it's day 3 now.
Fuck. Fuck. Fuck.
A lot harder than it was before.

[dontcare97]

8 days later and I'm back at 0

[bobby1273]

currently day 5 i think (longest for a long time) but I'm feeling like a failure for other reasons and come the outcome on Thursday i might crack badly.

[lifeislikeamelody]

Im 16 and bite my wrists on occasion :/ but i have not done it in two days. im trying to celebrate even the smallest victories but im still scared and feel alone. I have not told anyone that i self harm or even feel sad yet.

[Skyhawk]

I can't take it anymore, I think I nearly made 10 days.

Day 0
and I feel like crap :(

[CyanideGoodnight]

Oh lookie here. It's pretty much day 25... Ugh... :(

[Love.Hate]

Day 3.

I'm away for a few days, so I have no choice but to reach that week.

[Amaryllis]

Day 4? Or maybe 3. Lets say 4 hehe

[Infidelitas]

Day 39

[Amaryllis]

Well done, Charlie :) Keep it up guys!

Wanted to cut reeaaalll bad. Still do. But I won't. Must. Resist.

[Magenta]

Day 3... :(

[Malcolm Tucker]

Day 3. For now, at least.

[Jimmy Page]

Day 0 again :(

[georgiamay]

Day 52 I think.

[Harley Quinn]

month and 2 days

[moon_lit_angel]

Day 84
So sick of it all now :(

[bobby1273]

well i did get to day 6 for like 1/2 hour, but i can't really say i care I'm back to day 0 right now ....

[NobodysCupOf Tea]

Day 11.... The urge has gone. I know not forever, but cutting has little appeal to me at this point in time...

[Alexithymia]

A disappointing day 0.

I almost want to give up. My head's killing me, and it wasn't -that- much pleasure.

[xdancing_for_rainx]

day 1, but not confident it'll last

[morbidmonkey]

probably like 5 weeks, boy do i miss it

[Magenta]

Sorry...

Day 0. I can't take the paranoia/stress.

[Amaryllis]

Don't give up, guys.

It's okay, Jo. Pick yourself back up. Keep going. Nowhere to go but up.

Day 5, my lucky number :) Going ice-skating with Brandy tomorrow. I've never had a friend before. I'm happy.

[louisgray]

Day 11.... The urge has gone. I know not forever, but cutting has little appeal to me at this point in time...

Well done

[Infidelitas]

Day 40

[louisgray]

Day 40

Good work Charlie

[Malcolm Tucker]

Day 0. :/

[Amaryllis]

When you hit rock bottom there's nowhere to go but up, Hank Scorpio/Michael/Simpson.

Keep going, fishies. Just keep swimming, just keep swimming :D

EDIT: Yaaayy!!! I'm so proud of myself. I took a pictures of me today and put it up. Haven't taken a picture since I dropped to 60 pounds. And I haven't shown a picture of me to the public that wasn't from like 4 years ago in forever. I know this isn't self-harm but I'm just so proud of myself. I might not be pretty but what the heck. Love me for my heart, not my face.

[Valkyrie]

Umm... may I ask why do u guys find selfharm appealling? I just dont get it, why do some u guys find pleasure doing it? This is giving me a brainer lol

[CyanideGoodnight]

FaithAndTrust: Just keep swimming, just keep swimming, just keep swimmy swimmy swimmy lol :)

VainJC, It's a release. It gets rid of tension, it feels and looks like an escape. Also, the chemicals that are released whenever you get a cut (Accidental or not) makes you happy and what not, so that's another part of it.

Day 26. Yesterday wasn't as hard as I thought it was going to be.

That's not good though, because now today's going to suck in comparison. Eh, oh well.

Keep going everyone <3

[Valkyrie]

Umm... Well i guess that could be true but what causes people do it? Is it deppresion ? Self Hate? Im sure to do a research about this when im older, Oh just had a idea, Artificial skin and liquids but it will look exactly like the real thing, im sooo going to be rich when i get a job lol

[Bath]

Day 2.
Trying to keep myself distracted and busy. I don't know how long it's going to work.

[Amaryllis]

As in we cut fake skin? o___O That wouldn't give us the release and pain we need.

And we all cut for different reasons. Control, because we feel miserable, self-hate, anger, for me it was a coping mechanism other than starving. Because we feel worthless, because people are cruel and say and do cruel things, to feel alive, so the pain we feel inside can be seen. People only see the pain on the outside, after all. At the same time I hide it and lie though. But I kinda want people to notice. Not that they do.

[Bath]

If you don't understand it, than that's good, you won't fall into it, basically.
It just helps. It's different. It feels different. We feel something.

It's so difficult to explain and it just frustrates me lol.

[AppealToReason]

Umm... may I ask why do u guys find selfharm appealling? I just dont get it, why do some u guys find pleasure doing it? This is giving me a brainer lol

Well, everyone has a coping mechanism. Some people will eat, listen to music, do drugs, self-harm. Others will do all of the above...
Anyways, it's just another way to cope for some of us. And some like the feeling of being in control. Guess it varies for everyone, but coping and control seem to be the main reasons.

[Amaryllis]

And it's also to punish for some of us. For me it is, for being a bad girl or eating or being useless or getting a bad mark. I know, I'm crazy. I'm a perfectionist. And it's also a distraction from the pain. And for me it's my father. His face makes me wanna cut cause if I don't hurt myself, I'll end up hurting me.

You can't send me to jail for chopping my own arm off.

[SilentlyCrying]

3 days.

[Bath]

You can't send me to jail for chopping my own arm off.

You could go to the mental hospital though.

[UnknownError]

79 days...

[moon_lit_angel]

85 days-3 months-12 weeks. Longest since November :/

[xdancing_for_rainx]

0

need i say more

[Alexithymia]

Day 1. Hopefully soon to be day 0.

[Painted_Indian_Horse]

Umm... Well i guess that could be true but what causes people do it? Is it deppresion ? Self Hate? Im sure to do a research about this when im older, Oh just had a idea, Artificial skin and liquids but it will look exactly like the real thing, im sooo going to be rich when i get a job lol

it's not just the look of it. it's the feel. the pain is an important part of why we (at least me) do it. i'd honestly rather feel physical pain than emotional pain. it's a distraction from my problems, it's a punishment, it's an addiction, it's so many things. i don't expect you to understand where i'm coming from, it would seem crazy to someone who hasn't had firsthand experience with it. but there's so much more to it than most people think.

day 7, by the way :)

[Valkyrie]

Umm... I used to have a friend that did that (I think hes dead tho), anyway if people are cruel or just do stupid things i just usually punch them (dont know why its a reflex lol). You could ask my dad or my ex bf, also my english teacher and my french one too (she is such a bitch), It's always been a way to release hate for me. But I know there is more reasons that U mentioned.
On the fake skin thing, it could be connected to ur brain so if u hurt urself on that skin u would feel it, but some of u want it to show so it woudnt be so good in that kind of market, I might use it for something else...

[Infidelitas]

Umm... may I ask why do u guys find selfharm appealling? I just dont get it, why do some u guys find pleasure doing it? This is giving me a brainer lol

If you haven't been in the situation before, you cannot ask that question. Its good you don't understand why we do it. Its a temporary release of stress. I know there are other ways that you can release stress, but if your feeling low, you get into a certain mind set, and you see its the only option, even thought there are other options out there.

Anywho, Day 41

[Bath]

Umm... I used to have a friend that did that (I think hes dead tho), anyway if people are cruel or just do stupid things i just usually punch them (dont know why its a reflex lol). You could ask my dad or my ex bf, also my english teacher and my french one too (she is such a bitch), It's always been a way to release hate for me. But I know there is more reasons that U mentioned.
On the fake skin thing, it could be connected to ur brain so if u hurt urself on that skin u would feel it, but some of u want it to show so it woudnt be so good in that kind of market, I might use it for something else...

That's cool advice, telling us to punch people, which is assault and could end us up in prison. :rolleyes:

No, it's not connected. Do you know how much a blade ripping your skin hurts? You can't feel that with artificial skin and blood. Even if that existed, I wouldn't use it. I would feel stupid and probably tear myself up even more than I originally planned if I tried that.

And do you know how awkward that would be to buy?

Sorry if I'm being bitchy, I'm in a bad mood.

It's just that... it doesn't work that easy. And I know you may think it is, but it isn't. It really, really isn't. I'm sorry.

Day 3, if I make it through tonight.

[Alexithymia]

Day 0.

Oh, and idiots who are coming here saying "Why do you do this" or "Artificial skin!" or something like that, please go somewhere else. Please accept what we do; please accept we're trying to get over it; please help us with realistic ideas. No offense, but a full body of fake skin is a bit out of the question. :D But out of the box thinking is appreciated!

[Magenta]

Day 0.

Worst/best part? I feel proud. My shoulders were a place scarred by other self-harm, not cutting, yet it felt good to change that.

[xdancing_for_rainx]

No surprise I'm still at day 0. It could stay this way for a while.

[Amaryllis]

Day 6 :) so proud of myself. I actually feel okay. And it's all thanks to brandy. Laughed so much with her today. I have something to look forward to each day now.

But I have more to lose

[Amaryllis]

Edit: sorry for the double posting

[Alexithymia]

Day 1... Mehhh....

[CyanideGoodnight]

Day... 27? Yeah, I think day 27. Honestly the only reason I got past day 10 or whatever is because of him... :wub: he keeps me sane <3

Keep going everyone you guys can do it <3

[Valkyrie]

Ummm... Im so sorry writting some of those things... i was starting to get bored, luckly i didnt post when I was actually bored cause i would probally have called u some things. I even raged at a friend (deadspace) on skype and it wasnt very nice. I didnt meant to offend u guys (or mabye i did but i cant remember). Btw i meant by punching people to do boxing or some other sport involving violence. And i didnt lie about doing those things.
And by artificial crap i mentioned that it was a bad idea and it could be use in a different type of market, so dont get mad at me for that. Also an Idiot woudnt write that, an Idiot would write u are all retards and i didnt write anything like that.
And who said I didnt accept what u do, also it was just a stupid Idea so dont rage me.

[Bath]

luckly i didnt post when I was actually bored cause i would probally have called u some things.



And who said I didnt accept what u do


Uhhh

[Valkyrie]

I wasnt talking about ur comment, also I have posted my problem in the mental Illnesses section.

[Bath]

I wasnt talking about ur comment, also I have posted my problem in the mental Illnesses section.

I know you weren't, I was just pointing out that hypocrisy :P

And ok, yeah I don't want to get off topic here in this thread so I'll post there.

[UnknownError]

80 days. Nearly done it today in school. :/

[moon_lit_angel]

3 months 1 day!

[Alexithymia]

Edited out for PM.

Daaay 0, by the way.

[love is louder]

end of day 6! this has been my longest in almost a year
starting to struggle now like!

[SilentlyCrying]

4 days. (:

[Magenta]

Debating between day 1 and day 0.

[bobby1273]

day 1, i wonder though how long ill last ...

[Fourth Dimension]

in 24 days it will be 1 year

[CyanideGoodnight]

it's either day 28 or day one...

Eh, subconsiously scratching myself/cutting dosn't cout.

Day 28 it is! :p

Keep going everyone!! <3 :hug:

[Bath]

Day 0. Not surprised at myself at all.

[Magenta]

Day zero.

Yay.

[Amaryllis]

A whole week. Woop.

Pick yourself up, Jo. Come on. Where's that girl I admire and look up to. I know you're there.

And wow, well done Connor. Keep it up! :)

Keep going, Mark. Bethany. Ashley. All of you. You're a-ma-zing.

Love you guys <3

[AppealToReason]

Good job, Faith!
Make it to a month and I'll...bake you cookies. lol.

[UnknownError]

81. Had the blade to my arm last night, smashed up a pencil sharpner to get one but never done it. Meh.

Keep going/trying everyone.<3

[moon_lit_angel]

conor keep going... 87

[Infidelitas]

Day 43

My wrist has scarred from the last time I cut

[Amaryllis]

thanks, michael.

Don, scars are scars. They're not wounds. Move on. Keep going. You're an inspiration.

Connor, well done :) Keep it up.

Day 8. I wanna be anorexic again but I'm too scared to. I'm so offing hideous and fat and ugly. Sure, others can be fat but I can't. I have to be skinny or nobody'll love me. But I don't want to be miserable again.

EDIT: Day 0. Sorry.

[Love.Hate]

Day 7

[CyanideGoodnight]

It's okay Faith, just pick yourself up again tomorrow, you can do it I know it <3
Fran, way to go, one week! :)

Day 29. Keep going everyone else <3

[The Dudeh]

Around 2 weeks again (lost track of the days on holiday). I'm really gonna try and get at least a month.

[moon_lit_angel]

88 days

[Love.Hate]

Wow Ashley your nearly at 30 days!! That's incredible. Keep going! :hug:

Wow your all doing so well, well done guys you should all be really proud if yourselves :)

[DoctorWho]

Day 1 ahhh a fresh start

[LittlePaperStars]

5 days.

[Weeping]

~~~~~

[goneghost]

Day 15.

[xdancing_for_rainx]

day 2, I think

[Love.Hate]

8 days :)

[Amaryllis]

Thanks and keep it up, peeps! Y'all doin awesome.

Day 1 :)

[Magenta]

It's going to be day zero for awhile so I just won't post here.

Keep going everyone.

[Skyhawk]

Hm... Still day zero, I'm covered in bruises now.

[Infidelitas]

44 days

[CyanideGoodnight]

Day 30! I think this calls for a party. Maybe that "I survived two years of Mr. P." party? Either way, I want a party *throws confetti* :D

Keep going everyone <3

[Love.Hate]

Day 30! I think this calls for a party. Maybe that "I survived two years of Mr. P." party? Either way, I want a party *throws confetti* :D
<3

You deserve a party! Well done :D :D

Keep going everyone your all doing great :hug:

[UnknownError]

82. >_<

[Amaryllis]

Omg well done, Connor! So proud of you!

Keep going, peeps <3

[DoctorWho]

Day 2

[Infidelitas]

45 Days; Everyone is doing so well!

[Love.Hate]

Day nine.

:(

[xdancing_for_rainx]

day 3

How long can I keep this up...

[morbidmonkey]

hah day 0. broke my 2 month streak, and the day before my birthday >.<

[Magenta]

It was almost day 1.

[Amaryllis]

Happy early birthday, Ella. Pick yourself up.

Keep going, guys. You know you can.

Day 2 :)

[Magenta]

Day 1 this time. I've not tried for too long.

[Bath]

Day 3. Thing have been going pretty good recently, and I'm going on vacation in a few days, so I hope I go for a bit longer. I think I will. :)

[UnknownError]

83 days...

[FuzzyLittleNightmare]

Day 3...but my hands are shaking so much.... I really really need to cut...I can barely breathe...

[Painted_Indian_Horse]

day 11! i'm gonna keep track and see how far i can get

[Love.Hate]

Well done guys your all doing so well!! Keep it up :hug:

[Infidelitas]

46 days

[moon_lit_angel]

Day 90

[FuzzyLittleNightmare]

Back to day 0....I was weak...I failed...

[Punk_Kid]

about 8 months. my girlfriend said she needed a break over text this morning so im not sure about a whole lot right now:P

[Bath]

Back to day 0....I was weak...I failed...

You're not weak. It's an addiction, we're all going through it<3 Just make this your new mark. See how far you can go from here :)

about 8 months. my girlfriend said she needed a break over text this morning so im not sure about a whole lot right now:P

Heehee fiddley dee. -.-

[xdancing_for_rainx]

Day 0.

Hate the wishes that it was winter already- so I could wear something long sleeved and get away with properly hurting myself >.<

[CyanideGoodnight]

Aye day 32. Don't know if it'll last. I just got banged up pretty good due to my lovely accident pronity (That is now a word) and my legs are a mess and I rubbed rubbing alcohol on the scratches and good god it felt sooo good... the release was beautiful... I loved it... I want more... I'll fight it off best I can... :/

Keep going everyone else, you can do it <3 :hug:

[Skyhawk]

Day...1?

Tbh, my body is too exhausted oddly enough to do anything.

Keep going everyone :)

[Bath]

Day 0. I thought I would be able to go this time for at least a week :/

[moon_lit_angel]

91 days :( Didnt get photography :'(

[Love.Hate]

Day 10. Dont know how I have managed to go for this long.

[Amaryllis]

You don't fail till you quit trying.

Day 3 I think

Had fun taking pictures for Hope Day. Check it out if you haven't already, yeah? :)
http://www.virtualteen.org/forums/showthread.php?t=111889

Faith and trust, y'all. Love you peeps <3

[Kaius]

28 weeks 2 days

Kathy's been free for 48 days :)

[Infidelitas]

28 weeks 2 days

Kathy's been free for 48 days :)

Everyone is doing so well

[Magenta]

Maybe day 2.

Wouldn't count on it.

[Skyhawk]

Day -1.

Yes, negative one, don't ask me how I got there...

[Malcolm Tucker]

haven't a clue. Was almost 0 on multiple occasions this morning though. Ugh.

[UnknownError]

84 days.
Keep going everywun. :)

[xdancing_for_rainx]

Day 0. Again.

[georgiamay]

Day 59. :eek:

[Love.Hate]

Day 59. :eek:

WOW THATS AMAZING!!! keep going :hug:

Day 11

[DoctorWho]

day 5

[Painted_Indian_Horse]

Day 0... Maybe now I'll be able to get some sleep...

[Amaryllis]

If you stumble, make it part of your dance. Keep going, fishies. You can do this. You're doing well.

Day 4 :)