Non Self Harm Calendar!

[Triceratops]

35 days.

The urge to burn and slash at my limbs comes stronger each day.
I want to make myself throw up all over again, call me selfish, but I feel I really desire for it.

[The Batman]

32 days the only reason i haven't done it is because i have nothing to use.

[murderousflower]

its been 7 weeks for me. i have come so close to cutting again, but it really isn't worth the trouble that i will be in for cutting. my mom will ask to see my arms and thighs. then she'll tell the shrink. and really, though they might not know it, my two best friends are the only ones i am stopping for.

[The Joker]

Matt I...Didn't :(

I'm a bit late, but I'm glad you tried Karina.

Good job everyone else!

[Holding On*]

32 hours... I am counting each hour, yes :/ It is that bad :(

[Flutterfly]

I've almost caved on Wednesday night at church... made my friend cry and she was up all night praying and crying for me. Then had a scare Thursday, thought a friend was cutting because someone told adults she was, realized how much it can really hurt when someone that close to you does that, turns out she didn't cut! But it got me a long talk with my mum. I'm too shaken up to cut, hopefully, for a long time (maybe forever).

31days?

[dead]

22 hours I think I might be able to go far this time

[MysticalBurrito]

I think 3 days now...
Almost caved today but I'm doing better

Great good everyone keep going :)

[The Joker]

Great job everyone!

[optimashprime]

every one is doing so well :)

good luck all

[GreyxRainbow]

Day 17.

[Project Delta]

33
:)

[optimashprime]

wow 33 days well done

[Project Delta]

1 week til my target

[Triceratops]

36 days.

This is going really slow.
I'm freaking out because I want to go take my dog into the woods with my neighbour but she's ill and she can't go out and she'll probably be busy with college stuff and also it's raining and I've only just recovered from being ill and my mum is being overprotective and not letting me go into the woods because she thinks I'll catch pneumonia plus it has a history of there being violent paedophiles of the sort that lurk around in there but she doesn't understand how much I love the fucking woods.
I got so fucking frustrated last night, I woke up from a nightmare about a spider and a freakishly tall woman with orange spikes coming out of her eyes and couldn't get back to sleep so I tried to write my own song lyrics but I just couldn't bring myself to write anything interesting or good and it all sucked and I wanted to cry because writing is something I love doing and I can be really good at it if I try, but everything I wrote wasn't good enough and sounded like shit and I was irritated beyond belief.

I want to be sick.

[OnlyByTheNight.]

Just hang in there Marcie, you can do it! :hug:

[PoisonedRazorBlades]

Day 8. xD

[kt2369]

day 26(:

[Flutterfly]

I keep losing track of what day I'm at >.<

[Project Delta]

your nearly at 33 Robin

[Origami]

*waves* 21 days.

[PoisonedRazorBlades]

Well done guys xD

[Project Delta]

What you on morgan? its 8 days isnt it?

[Cloud]

*counts*
erm 17 days
i think anyway hmm

[PoisonedRazorBlades]

Yeah, Aaron, its 8 >.<

And well done on the 17 days Cloud

[Project Delta]

Keep it up morgan, you can do it :)

[PoisonedRazorBlades]

Thanks. You too. You're doing great.

[Project Delta]

34..

[The Joker]

Great job everyone!

[GreyxRainbow]

I am back to my first day.

Again.

[PoisonedRazorBlades]

Just starting 9.

[Project Delta]

Well done morgan, and becca you can do this! Talk to me more if you want, i never judge and am a great listener and advice giver (apparantly) That applies to everyone struggling kl?

[Project Delta]

Just to update you guys on Maizda (who used to be on here but isn't allowed anymore by her mum)

Maizda : 14 days
All messages will be passed on :)

[Holding On*]

I don't know what I am on D:

[Flutterfly]

I'm at a number of days... that I keep losing track of... =/

[Project Delta]

Okay guys Robin is at the same day as me -4 hours k? :D

[piggy-wiggy]

back to square one....
*sigh*...............x

[Project Delta]

laura, Msn?

[piggy-wiggy]

mm-hmm............x

[Harley Quinn]

Day one again.i cant beat this .argh.

[Project Delta]

You can and you will beat this! I know you can do it

[Harley Quinn]

Ive been at day one six times in the last two weeks and thank ill try but i dont think i cam things are pretty bad

[Project Delta]

you will do it over time you cant just stop dead!

[Harley Quinn]

True thanks im going to try so hard this time

[Project Delta]

But Just remember, you are likely to fall and slip up, but you CAN beat it in the end as long as your willing to keep on trying

[OnlyByTheNight.]

2 weeks today.

[Harley Quinn]

Ive threw my stuff away so i can go longer and well done on the two weeks

[Project Delta]

Well done eve :) Keep it up ! :D

[OnlyByTheNight.]

THanks guys, I cant believe I'm going so long! :)

[Project Delta]

you can go longer and make us all even more proud :)

[Cloud]

YAY EVE
erm i think 18...

[OnlyByTheNight.]

Well done Calum, keep it up! :)

[Project Delta]

35 in 4 hours

[Harley Quinn]

I failed again sorry

[Project Delta]

Siobhan, i'll pm you something

[The Batman]

36 days but I might crack tonight infact I almost am certain of it.

[Triceratops]

Thirty-fucking-eight days.

I feel shaky, sick, dizzy, weak and I can't think straight.

Leave me alone.

[BuryYourFlame]

8 days.

:( i hope you're ok marcie...but, as per your wish...i wont contact you till my morning...

[PoisonedRazorBlades]

Day 10 xD

[piggy-wiggy]

day 0 ... Again ........x

[Harley Quinn]

Its okay just try and pick yourself up you are a strong piggy-wiggy.

6 1/2 hours

[piggy-wiggy]

tnx siobhan.. im gona try.... u too !!.......x

[Harley Quinn]

I had to start again too and its hard but i wont let myself cut this time
You can do it.say to yourself you can

[Project Delta]

Come on guys you can do it

[piggy-wiggy]

yeah.. its wayy hard.... but i hope it'll be okay , for us both.. tnx Aaron.. :).........x

[Harley Quinn]

We are here if you need us though and thanks aaron you too

[GreyxRainbow]

Day 2.

Guys, I believe you all can do it. You will beat this in the end.

[kt2369]

28. i feel like i can keep going a while:)

[Harley Quinn]

you can keep strong

[Holding On*]

5.25days... :P

[BlackenedSilver]

Right 13 days in half an hour. :D I'm actually going to start trying to stop this again. :P

Everyones doing so well :) Keep it up!!

[peaceloverugby]

I'm back....:D

didn't cut the whole time I was at the lake, which makes it: 23 DAYS!!!!

Everyone's doing so well, keep it up!!

[Cloud]

Welcome home and well done conner

[Harley Quinn]

starting again.argh.

[peaceloverugby]

I know you can do it Siobhan!! (very pretty name by the way) We'll get through this together.

[Harley Quinn]

thanks, if had to start again so many tmes

[Holding On*]

I don't think I can get to 6. Day 6 is at 5pm tomorrow (ish). I don't think I can do it :(

[Harley Quinn]

i believe in you

[Holding On*]

im glad you do,because I don't..

[Harley Quinn]

dont doubt yourself you can do it

[Holding On*]

0...

I don't really know why I done them if I am honest... I just pickedit up (I had been holding it earlier - it calms me down) and done it... dind't think aout it, I just done it... I ams riosuly fucked up in the head...

[Flutterfly]

I'm at day 35?
I'm not making it any further... >.<
My next post in here will probably be day 0... or 1... or a few hours...
I can't beat 35 =[

[peaceloverugby]

aw, Steph, you're not fucked in the head, you're a smart and funny girl. Just get back up and keep going.

Eli, MSN? i'll be up all night as usual if you want to chat. (you too Steph)

[Holding On*]

Thanks conner i'll try...

[GreyxRainbow]

Steph, Eli, you are both amazing girls. And you will beat this. I know you will, and I believe you both have the strenght to beat this. I believe in you. I really do. Take care. :hug3:

*Edit 6:25 am: I guess I'm on my 3th day as I got trough the night without cutting. (also without sleeping but whatever)

[wildeyed]

2 months today.
gah so hard.

[piggy-wiggy]

i got through 1 day .... *sigh* .... why are the first days the hardest .. i cant get it off my mind . x

[Harley Quinn]

i fail day one. and its cos you relied on self harm to cope and now without it your lost but keep going you can do it

[Triceratops]

39.

I'm not thinking about it.
When I do think about it, it makes me want to vomit and it makes me feel achey, drowsy, dizzy and gives me headaches.

Going to the therapist later today anyway. Hm.

[PoisonedRazorBlades]

Day 11. I'm not having that much trouble with it. I'm just waiting for it to get hard. I don't believe that it can be this easy >.<

[peaceloverugby]

Day 24...wow.

[Project Delta]

you'd be surprised morgan
to be honest its so bloody surprising that everyone is doing so damn well!

[Flutterfly]

I'm at 36? >.<
I know I'm going to cave today...

[Harley Quinn]

you wont keep strong and distract yourself

[Project Delta]

Robin, msn?

[BlackenedSilver]

Eli you've come this far I'm sure you can go longer :)!

14 days.

[Project Delta]

Come on eli, we can make this!

[OnlyByTheNight.]

2 weeks and 2 days.
The only thing that kept me from doing it last night was the song one more by superchick so my thanks to Aaron for that! :)

[Project Delta]

Anytime eve! :)

[ackmedsgirl666]

im doing soo good
i just started councelling
anyways its been 1 month and 1 week and still counting

[Harley Quinn]

well done keep it up

[ackmedsgirl666]

well done keep it up
thankyou

[Holding On*]

one day and one hour

[BlackenedSilver]

Keep it up everyone. :)

Day 15 :)

[Holding On*]

Keep it up yourself ;) (Yes I mean it in two ways ;))

[Flutterfly]

You're all doing so well...

[piggy-wiggy]

dayy two ... *sigh* ... i hate this ... x

[PoisonedRazorBlades]

Day 12 xD

[Project Delta]

Wtg keep going morgan

[PoisonedRazorBlades]

Thanks xD You're doing great too. xD I'm proud of you.

[Project Delta]

Cheers i dont feel right posting every day in here now, just when i get to my targets so in 3 days i'll be here

[Harley Quinn]

Nearly a day ( i think )

[GreyxRainbow]

Day fourrrr. :)

Stay strong, everyone. You're doing great.

[Project Delta]

What becca said, keep it up!: )

[Harley Quinn]

Yay me 1 day and 3 hours

[peaceloverugby]

holy...crap...day 25

[The Joker]

Great job!!!

[2D]

Made it through a big fight with my ex. Didn't cut that night. I'm kinda proud. :)

[peaceloverugby]

Good job Jeff, you should be proud.

Side note: ex's seem to have that effect on me as well, it reminds me why they're ex's

[2D]

Thanks Connor! :)

[piggy-wiggy]

wel done everyone... =)
3 days.............x

[GreyxRainbow]

You're doing great. =]

5th day.

[peaceloverugby]

26...just a few more days to a month

[OnlyByTheNight.]

Well done Connor, keep it up! :D

[The Joker]

Great job!

[peaceloverugby]

thank you! It would've never happened without everyone here

[PoisonedRazorBlades]

Day 13 >.< Fighting urges though. I knew today would be bad

[dead]

2 weeks

[peaceloverugby]

Great job Connor!! keep it up brother

[PoisonedRazorBlades]

Day 14.... Wow... 2 weeks already? O.o

[GreyxRainbow]

6th day.. One week tomorrow, my target now.

[MysticalBurrito]

9 days...
:(
Feel like I'm going to cave..

[Project Delta]

Come on Karina you can do this.

[ackmedsgirl666]

almost caved a couple times but still holding on
about 1 month, 1 week, and a couple days
everyone is very proud of my progress

[Holding On*]

3 days soon to be 0 probably.

[peaceloverugby]

27 days, one more day until 4 weeks...wow

[The Joker]

You are all doing very good!

You can do it Karina and Steph!

[Holding On*]

Thanks Matt, I don't think I will anymore, but I jsut feel very very down.. :/

[The Joker]

Well, it's bad you're feeling down, but good that you aren't going to do it.

[kt2369]

its been exactly one month.
not sure if its worth it anymore:confused:

[Flutterfly]

its been exactly one month.
not sure if its worth it anymore:confused:

YAY ONE MONTH!
It is worth it. Great going.

[GreyxRainbow]

One week. :)

[Flutterfly]

One week. :)

That's awesome =D

[PoisonedRazorBlades]

Day 15.

Edit: Or 0? I don't know anymore.. >.<

[peaceloverugby]

28 days, four weeks (of no cutting)

but I guess my drinking binge last night counts as self-harm, so day 1 :(

[Viral Death]

3 Months

[Bougainvillea]

I haven't cut in 3 years. :)

[PoisonedRazorBlades]

Wow, three years

[The Joker]

Great job everyone!

And Chris...:).

[Josh9961]

17 days. a new record for the last 8 months. but i guess replacing it with smoking and drinking isnt good. but its a start :)

[OnlyByTheNight.]

Day one just about down. Nearly caved 3 times though. :(

[Josh9961]

every day, even the first is another step, if you feel like caving, come on here,
but keep at it man :)

[peaceloverugby]

Day one just about down. Nearly caved 3 times though. :(

way to go Eve!! keep it up

[Josh9961]

proof that I shouldnt be up at 3 am English time: I accidentally added man to that post but youre female so your not a man. :whoops:I sorrys. Still, Keep at It :)

[Sunshine Girl]

I haven't cut in 3 years. :)

inspiration (:

[Josh9961]

:(Fuck. 3 minutes. Its starting all over again

[Bougainvillea]

inspiration (:

Everyone needs it at one point or another.
Great job, everyone!

[Spin]

About 1 day.

[PoisonedRazorBlades]

Back to day 1. >.<

[peaceloverugby]

29 days of no cutting

[GreyxRainbow]

Day 8 now.

[Bougainvillea]

Keep it up guys!

[piggy-wiggy]

it was 6 days..
but now its day 0.......x

[GreyxRainbow]

Day 9. It's never been this hard before. :/

[PoisonedRazorBlades]

Back to my 1st day... Will I get through it all? >.<

[Flutterfly]

Fourty Two =D yays. I've been seeing how much friends cutting can hurt someone IRL because I'm at my friend's house... and watching her hurt isn't fun. I'm done cutting.

[peaceloverugby]

*high fives Eli* good for you

30 days XD

[PoisonedRazorBlades]

Well done everyone. xD

[GreyxRainbow]

So proud of you, Eli! : D

Morgan. You will get trough this. You are so much stronger than the razor, and you are strong enough to get out all of this shit. Stay strong. :hug3:

[PoisonedRazorBlades]

I'll do my best xD

[NightFighter]

I need to cut. I feel so disliked and uncared for right now.
Im getting my exam results at 8am today so im sure i'll be feeling especially crap and weak. Im sure i'll cut. I completely failed everything. Urrrgghghhhhh.
Its been about 5 months since i last cut my wrists but its been about 1 or 2 months since i last cut. I should just go to sleep and wait for the fail results then do it.
Im such a fricken failure.

Well done to everyone else though =]

[Flutterfly]

I need to cut. I feel so disliked and uncared for right now.
Im getting my exam results at 8am today so im sure i'll be feeling especially crap and weak. Im sure i'll cut. I completely failed everything. Urrrgghghhhhh.
Its been about 5 months since i last cut my wrists but its been about 1 or 2 months since i last cut. I should just go to sleep and wait for the fail results then do it.
Im such a fricken failure.

Well done to everyone else though =]

Mmm... no. You should wait for the results. Then wait for the rest of your life.
You are worth more than cutting. And people care about you whether you know it or not. I'd offer to talk, but I have to go =/ might be on msn/aim/yahoo if you want to add me. But there are plenty of people to talk to here that would love to help you. You can keep up the good work! Deep down you have to know it even if you dont know you know it!

[PoisonedRazorBlades]

I care for you. I don't know you so that probably seems a little, well a lot, weird. I know how you feel. But you're not a failure, nobody is. You're doing great. But you're right sleep would probably be best for you atm xD Good luck and all the best for tomorrow.

[OnlyByTheNight.]

Day one down. Right now I've set my target for one week and I am quite hopeful I'll reach that.

Everyone else is doing great. :D

[peaceloverugby]

Eve I know you can do it! Just remember it's okay to ask for help, k? Everyone here wants you to succeed, and we'll do whatever it takes to get you to one week and farther.

[Bougainvillea]

You can do it, Eve!

[OnlyByTheNight.]

Thanks Connor and Chris. I think I can do it. Feeling quite strong atm. :D

[piggy-wiggy]

1 1/2 days.... =/

[Bougainvillea]

Well, piggy, it's a start.
Be proud. ;)

[GreyxRainbow]

Day 10. Meh.

[The Joker]

Great job!

[GreyxRainbow]

Day 11.. I was so very close to cutting yesterday. :/

[Bougainvillea]

You can do it, Becca. :)

[BuryYourFlame]

day 4

[Bougainvillea]

Woo!
Declan!

[Zero Beat]

15 Days... and counting.

[Flutterfly]

You guys are doing awesome! Day 44 for me! (7weeks I believe)

[The Joker]

You can do it Jack and Robin! (If you don't mind me calling you that)

[2D]

Just went through hell and back tonight. Thank you Athan so much. And you too Nik. I don't know what I would do without everyone here.

[Bougainvillea]

You're a strong guy, Jeff. :)

Keep you're chin up.

[DjIntegrity]

Hi I'm Athan

If anyone wants someone to talk to or just needs help ask me

my msn is: [email protected]

[MysticalBurrito]

Day two I think?
I need a goal...
I lied to my parents again...I promised them I hadn't cut...
I can't tell then the truth :(

[BlackenedSilver]

22 days :)

Keep it up everyone :P Your doing so well.

[PoisonedRazorBlades]

Day 1

[The Joker]

Great job!

[GreyxRainbow]

Day 12.

[PoisonedRazorBlades]

Day 2

[MysticalBurrito]

4 days :)

I promised him I'd fight a good battle...
That's what I'm going to do :)

[BuryYourFlame]

today is day 6...

well done everyone :)

[The Joker]

Great job Morgan, Karina, Declan, and Grey rainbow!