long arguement gone bad

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lemme start off this has been going on since november..when my bf called this motherfucking bitch ass hoe...... just to talk to her.. behind my back and trying to hide it from me.
he knows i HATE the bitch for various reasons on what happend last year... with him and her...and i dont want it happening again
fuck it

well i guess im jealous..what can i say.... its only the truth..and last night we get into this big arguement about how i dont like himt alking to her cuz of what she said to him... while we were going out... and hes like well look what happend with you (and some dude i use to mess with) but i didnt mess around with him while we were going out nor hide it from him
so our arguements have just always been about the stupid hoe ass bitch.

anyway
we get into this big arguement about her and how i hate her n shit and then hes telling me why cant i let it go it was a jlong time ago
i go.. well it wouldnt have been in my mind if u hadnt called her in the first place and hid it from me
how am i suppose to know if ur gonna do it again behind my back...how do i know ur not hiding stuff from me right now? especially about her cuz its always drama when it comes to her
so he gets pissed... and were still arguing and hes all basically saying if i would just let it go its over with and im annoying him witht his shit cuz i bring it up all the time
(yes i know its my fault for doign that but....would it be happening if he didnt have to sneak it behind my back?)
and he says if i was only cool about him talking to her then this wouldnt happen
(UH HELLO?!!?!?!? WHAT THE FUCK)

we was still arguing and he called me a bitch
im like.. so im a bitch? yea....
said it 3x
im furious at this point also cuz he hung up on me
i tell him shit about how come u cant stay on the phone with me be a man and stay on besides hanging up and he said cuz hes tired of this shit..something like that
im PISSED he called me a bitch..and he called me one yesterday cuz of him..... i didnt call him one motherfucking word and im not planning on it
i just wanted to tell him fuck u and ur bullshit..... but... i didnt
i was just.... well thank u for being honest with me....at least ur not lying about it...like yesterday.

after that i just throw everything i can find i was sooo mad... i was punching walls and hitting shit



i cant even say i love u to him anymore... i did today cuz we hung out and acted like everything was cool.and i thought that it was..but now that im home... why did i do that?
i know itsmy fault for dwelling upon the past and bringing it up
but why did he do it to begin with?
UGH FUCk

if this doesnt make much sense im sorry im angry again just looking at everythign

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lol its long..o well

we talked about it
things are hopefully gonna get better

god i hope :(

[ScotsGirl]

Dont be sorry Veronica, its what we're here for!

It seems like he has seriously dented your trust by hiding the fact that he speaks/spoke to her? And I really dont blame you :?

I obviously dont know much about the situation but maybe the two of you could reach some sort of compromise?
From what you have said, jsut now you dont want him to ever talk to her and he wants to.
It might be an idea to agree to him talking to her, but only if he doesnt hide anything. Let him know thats its alright to talk about her to you but only within reason. Did he tell you why he didnt mention it before?
I guess its going to be difficult to build up trust again, but jsut take it one day at a time and youll get there :D

Anyway, I really hope you manage to sort things out! :D
But only if he apologises for what he called you! David is right, he should respect you!
And if he doesnt...
*loads shotgun*
...Im straight there, k? :x hehe :P

Goodluck!
:D
xxx

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thanks yal
we got worse than now were trying to make this work again
the stupid shit he was telling me.. was amazing....

now he apologized for saying all the dumb shit he said
but that doesnt mean im just gonna let him do whatever now
fuck that!!! yal know what i mean

i told him to call me whatever the fuck he wants and he's gonna find out who gets messed up mentally later on... and that hes just disrespecting me by calling me these names now...

he tells me hang on and then later comes back on the phone telling me that hes sorry and he was stupid for doing that
cant say hes not stupid for doing that..lol but im in the process of forgiving him...im trying to make this work too
im telling him he can talk to her but he tells me he doesnt want to... we'll see about that but im not gona tell him that and start anything...again cuz onlyi wanna make this work

yeah my trust for him is pretty low...but ill just keep on look out for them
2...if anything goes wrong..i am gonna show him what a bitch is and then im gonna see if he calls me anything
i cant be with soeone who disrespects me like that :(
its hard to say that yes he was my first and i trusted him with everything..
what can i do now?