Just a rant

[-Silence]

Hah, never thought that I'd be one to start a thread in here, because well it's me and yeah.

Bleh.

Anyways, I can't do it, I can't be in a relationship with someone. Its silly. People know that, people stay away from me, I stay away from them and everythings great. Except this guy. He didn't. Everything feels wrong though, I dont know, I just dont feel comfortable being around him at all anymore. My counselor keeps saying that its because I shove everyone away, she has a whole scenario about how I have a 10 ft wall built around me, with a huge moat around it and crocodiles in the water, and if you get past that there's poisonous gas, and yeah, in the end, very very few get near. But I also can't hurt him by telling him that I can't do this, its like I'm afraid to. So I've kinda been avoiding him, which isnt fair to him, its not his fault. And yeah, I need to just get it over with.

Sorry, I'm done ranting. Thanks.

[WelshLad]

ah somehting else I can relate to. I've been strung along by a girl - for 6 months. I actually thought she was playing hard to get but she just didn't see me that way.
I found out when we had a huge argument a few weeks ago.
Trust me, even though it may hurt a bit for both of you, i'd rather be told that be given false hope. He will get over it like i have

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No, your wrong, I'll hurt them like I hurt everyone else that tries to get near.


He called while I was at work, I accidently left my phone on my bed, anyways, he left me a message apologizing for no reason. He thinks I'm mad at him, which is understandable on his part.

I'm such a bitch, just ugh.