my story

[angel654]

i'm new to these forums. i joined because i have bottled everything up for so long, and everytime i try and talk to someone i cant. i figured talking to strangers might be easier, and talking to other people going through the same thing might make me feel less alone. so i'll tell you a bit about myself

where to start. i've been deppressed for 4 years now, and my life wasnt exactly great before that. my childhood was full of abandonment and rejection. my mum was too busy coping with my stepfathers death from being an alcoholic to talk to me about how i might be feeling, and my dad is too busy playing happy families with his new wife and kids to care. the deppresion set in when i was 13. i'd been bullied for 2 years, and i felt so alone. thats when the self harm started. it seemed like a release. everytime i did it i just felt like this weight had been lifted. but it never lasted long, and i was so ashamed of what i was doing, but i couldnt stop. i feel like everytime i get close to anyone, they leave me. the list is growing. my dad, my stepdad, my friends, my boyfriend. i've just recently been dumped. i made the mistake of telling him about my deppresion. he told me it freaked him out and that knowing i felt suicidal was a burden. that hurt more than anything else i have ever experienced. hes now decided to turn all my friends against me, leaving me friendless and alone once again. i dont know what to do. i'm struggling to see the point in life anymore. was i put here purely to experience pain? thats the way it seems. i have never been happy, and i dont understand what i did to deserve this.

so theres my story, or atleast some of it. i hope being on these forums will help me. who knows maybe i could even help someone else.

[Mzor203]

:hug:

First of all, welcome to VT. There are plnty of people here who are not only in the same boat as you, but also want to help you.

I'm in sort of the same situation as you. I have *some* sort of depression, but my parents have dismissed it so far, so really I can only talk to people here about it. Anyway, feel free to talk to me if you ever need it, and there are others too.

Now, on to your problem. You really need to see seomeone about this, a professional. You may or not be able to get your parents' help in this, but you need to try somehow. The sooner the better.

Your mom might not seem the best person to ask about it, but if you can see a doctor in some way (Do you go for a checkup every year?) you could ask him and he could most likely refer you to someone who can help you.

Your mom might seem like she doesn't care at all, but have you tried talking to her seriously before? You might be surprised at what you find. At least she'll probably take you to the doctor.

Best of luck with this, and as I said, I'm here to talk if you ever need it.

[griffince]

i no hw u feeling i get bullied everyday day i get depressed and anger so easy coz i dont tell any 1 hw i feel

[Viral Death]

Its ok my life is the same except my dad went to prison and my mom was to busy with boyfriends to care about me and my sis. And I get bullied at each school I go to and I have been depressed since I was 10 and now I am 13 so dont try to kill your self you can talk to me I will help you out....... Welcome to VT!