Who i used to be....

[AllyKat675]

I used to cut myself everyday and im proud to say that it has been 3 months since i have, but everytime i really look at a knife i think maybe i should do it again it helped me the first time to get through life why can't it help me again? Everytime i look at my scars they remind me of who i used to be and it sucks i feel like helpless, but sometimes my frustration and depression turns into anger and i act out often? is this normal?

[Atonement]

It is relatively normal for frustrated people. Three months. That is quite and acheivement. Congrats. Its so hard to stop cutting. It really is and it will take a long time before the urges end. When you look at those scare, don't feel sad that thats who you used to be, because it made you who you are. What we go through shapes who we are, and you have grown and become a perfectly normal person, so don't be proud of your cutting, but its not a bad thing to be proud that you have over come it.

[TigerLily]

I'm happy to hear of your success - you should be really proud of yourself! Don't feel bad about having those feelings when you see knives, but think to yourself how you managed to stop for 3 mths, and how proud that made you feel. 3 months is a long time, but it sounds like theres still time to go for you before your urges finally stop but you WILL get there someday, I am sure of it.
Feel free to PM me if you need to talk
Best wishes for the future,
Rachel

[scarstarz23]

congradualtions on 3 months. there are others that are fighting to make it through one day. so good on ya mate. and also the feelings about that scars, well i agree with vindication, i mean you have to accept that you did that to yourself, and you are better now for getting through it and surviving. realize that you survived something so horrible and you can do anything. now. way to go.....

[BlackenedSilver]

It is relatively normal for frustrated people. Three months. That is quite and acheivement. Congrats. Its so hard to stop cutting. It really is and it will take a long time before the urges end. When you look at those scare, don't feel sad that thats who you used to be, because it made you who you are. What we go through shapes who we are, and you have grown and become a perfectly normal person, so don't be proud of your cutting, but its not a bad thing to be proud that you have over come it.

I totally agree with Addison.

You should be so proud that you managed to stop cutting for 3 months and hopefully for good! You should be proud of who yo have become, that you are/were strong enough to stop in the first place.
When you look at your cuts you should be able to think, "Look at what I was, how I was strong enough to overcome all that"
Hope you feel better! x

[Triceratops]

Congratulations on not cutting for 3 months! That is such a good achievement.

Honestly, this is normal for any cutter, but that doesn't mean to say that it is right either. You're obviously strong enough and you have courage and willpower as the evidence is within those 3 months. Focus yourself on something positive and interesting which is powerful enough to drive you away from cutting, avoid any negative ideas. Try to ignore the scars on your arms and when you do look at them, think to yourself "I've come this far, and I don't want to ruin what I have achieved." because believe me it's not worth it. The scars will fade away.

Good luck :) PM me anytime