Have i got an eating disorder? D=

[ConnieReid-xx]

im really not sure anymore. my bmi says im a healthy weight for my age and things, but the way i feel most of the time makes me think otherwise.

im 14. 5'2 in height and about 6 and a half stone in weight. i am constantly feeling cold and tired. i check my weight at least once a day, and get really annoyed if i have put on any weight and feel great if i have lost some. my friends think i am too skinny but i dont think so. i really hate myself. everything about it is just horrible. even though my bmi says im an okay weight i still feel fat when i look in the mirror, and i wish that i could change.
last night, i felt like i had eaten wayyy to much that day.. so i decided to make myself sick by putting my fingers down my throat. i did that a couple of times, being sick a total of 6 times. i have done this a couple of times before but not as much as i did last night.

i dont want to tell my parents about this, so i would like some help on here. im scared of what my parents will say.. one time when i never ate all of my tea because i was full, my step dad started screaming at me saying that i will turn out like one of those size 0 [uk size] models. it was terrifying, his face was right up close to mine. my mum told him to stop but he just carried on. nothing like that has happend since though.

so please, anyone know what is wrong with me? :confused:

[Mzor203]

Sorry this is a little late, but I found it and thought I would answer.

The very fact that you are throwing up your food as alarming. I don't knnow how often you do it, but it sounds like you do it enough to be a concern. I really think you should talk to someone. Your mom sounds like someone who may be supportive of you, and even if she doesn't seem to you may be surprised. A school counselor is another choice that could help you. But whatever you do, you have to attack the problem before it starts getting bad.

As long as you're in a healthy BMI range everything's fine. Gaining weight is just part of being a teen, you're growing and you can't stop that, so the sooner you an get yourself to realize that your body is okay and you don't have to worry about a little weight gain, the better.

So, in short, depending on the severity of it, it is an eating disorder, and it needs to be taken care of. So make sure you get some help, its for the best in the long run.

[Triceratops]

It sounds like you have something what they call 'Body Dysmorphic Disorder' which I happen to know a lot about because apparently, I have it too.
You definitely have a distorted body image if you feel fat at 6 and a half stone, that's really thin! My sister weighs around 7 and a half stone and she's younger than you and yet she's pretty skinny. If your bmi tells you you're healthy, take that into consideration.

Don't worry, sweetie. I know this EXACT feeling. I put on a pound or so and it fucks up my mood completely, whereas I lose a little weight I feel on top of the world. I constantly examine and check in the mirrors to see if I look okay and that I don't look fat etc. I hate myself too, you're not alone.

As for the throwing up, I've done this a lot of times too. Except I DELIBRATELY eat lots just so I have an excuse to make myself throw up. I've told my pyschologist this and she never menioned anything to with an eating disorder, but it could definitely develop into one itself.

I'm always here if you ever need to talk :hug: take care xx

[HeatherBreannaa]

Anyone of any weight can have an eating disorder.
The things that you are describing are setting an alarm off in my head.
You really need to tell someone, immediately.
Eating disorders are very deadly and they will ruin your life.
I suggest that you seek medical attention, immediately!

[Beautiful Obsession]

Trust me ur definatley not fat!
im 14 and i weigh 3 stone more than you!
thats fat! I have always wondering about
making myself throw up but i make really weird
noises when im sick so my mum wud fink im ill!
dont worry hunni.. ur not fat..
speak to your mates about it they will help you through it!
xx

[jacksontail]

Hi Connie,

Your concerns are quite justified, as eating disorders are not just about food or weight. Since you’re very young, I think telling your parents about this isn’t such a bad idea at all. Apart from that, there are plenty of places online where you can seek help. I would suggest reading this useful resource to know more about eating disorders (http://www.eatingdisorder.com/?utm_source=forum&utm_medium=pv&utm_campaign=homepage). Also, you get free expert advice there as well, Good Luck!