and down I go...

[Wolf Teen]

My freinds are trying to help me...I'm trying to be let helped...But the crap that I'm going through just doesn't feel real. I don't know what 13 year old has the guts to swallow a bottle of pills, just to end up going to the docter and explaining the whole thing. My counsler is talking to me about it, but he just sounds like he's doing this because he has to...It doesn't sound, and he doesn't act, like he cares. I know I shouldn't have...I know I'm not meant to die, but what porpuse do I have! I mean nothing...All I am is a mockery for everyone around me...And the only 5 peaple I know who cared are all gone. 3 dead...2 in Iraq...And my freinds, heck, I love them...But I don't think they realize that I've been faking my whole life. When they wanted to know what happend, I wanted to shout at them that this is who I am! My mothers death just made it so I couldn't fake anymore...

Sorry guys...I hate putting this burden on you...

[Atonement]

Hun, don't feel bad at all, you are not burdening at all. That is what this forum is for.

Honestly, I felt the same way. Down to earth and all, I was in a VERY similar situation 11 months ago. I know exactly what you are going through. I can't give you specifc advice except to trust in your friends, stay safe, and do what you know is right. If you care to say more, share more, and/or talk, PM, post, anything you need. We're here for you.

:daisy:

Take care of yourself.

[byee]

You've been thru a lot, I'm sorry for you. Either tell your counselor what you need him to do, see if he responds, or find another. Therapists are all different, you have to find the right one for yourself.

When people are depressed, they feel sorta hopeless. But, hope is something not easily extinguished, it sometimes feels that way, but it's not. I think the fog of sadness gets in the way of seeing it. Having people you care for die is an awful thing, it really does get in the way.

There's a real injury there, that loss. Invest in yourself, and open up in therapy and talk about that loss. Let it out, learn ways of dealing with it and moving on.

There'a a lot of good life ahead.