Plan to buy blades

[Sapphire]

I've planned how I'm going to purchase and hide a pack of blades tomorrow without getting caught.
It isn't a spur of the moment thing.
It's planned.
I'm not sure how I can hide any cuts yet though.
Then again, am I sure that I want to cut?
Will just holding the blade help?

[The Batman]

No just holding them will make it easier for you to cave. It's just best to not be anywhere near them till you over this addiction.

[zoig]

Please don't do it, if u can't get sharps u can't cut.

[Sapphire]

I really doubt I'd use them. I don't want to do it and get caught. There is no way that I can achieve that so I wouldn't do it.

[Zephyr]

Ah Carole... *huggles*
No blades.
Getting caught isn't as glamorous as it sounds hun.
And even if you have no intention of cutting,
It's easy to cave and just do it anyway with the tools at your disposal.

[theOperaGhost]

Just holding the blade will not be enough; it will make it easier to cut. You will get over the addiction faster WITHOUT having blades.

[Wolf Teen]

Do not buy them. It will not help...It will make it easier to cut.

[CaptainObvious]

I really doubt I'd use them. I don't want to do it and get caught. There is no way that I can achieve that so I wouldn't do it.

Give me a break. You're addicted to cutting, not to holding blades. All that buying them will do is make it about 1000 times easier (and more tempting) to cave. And you know that. Stop rationalizing, and don't buy the damn blades!

[zoig]

Give me a break. You're addicted to cutting, not to holding blades. All that buying them will do is make it about 1000 times easier (and more tempting) to cave. And you know that. Stop rationalizing, and don't buy the damn blades!

Harsh...

True but harsh.

[MysticalBurrito]

Quote:
Originally Posted by oneshyguy View Post
Give me a break. You're addicted to cutting, not to holding blades. All that buying them will do is make it about 1000 times easier (and more tempting) to cave. And you know that. Stop rationalizing, and don't buy the damn blades!
Harsh...

True but harsh.

Agree

[CaptainObvious]

I wasn't being harsh, I was being direct. There is absolutely no way in which this is a good idea, and all the sympathy and heart signs in the world won't change that fact. Everything I said was absolutely true. Sorry if it wasn't sugarcoated enough for all of you...

[Willy]

Buy a packet of rubber bands instead and wear one (or more) around your wrist, pull and let go.
Slight tang - no harm.

[Sapphire]

I am not addicted and that is the truth of it.

If you are addicted to something then you cannot go without thinking about it or doing it for weeks or months at a time. You have no control over it. It is actually it that controls you.

I have the ability to choose to resist and that is why I am not addicted.

I did try the rubber band thing at one point but (and this is going to sound really stupid) it hurt too much!

[Willy]

:) You're sensible.
And I think that's the whole point of it hurting haha.

[Axellance]

Buying blades will only increase the urge and make it more convenient to cut. Do not buy them continue trying to quit. You want to make it as inconvenient as you possibly can because that will allow more meantime to pass before you get something to cut with and hopefully the urge will pass. buying blades is only asking for failure. You CAN quit cutting, it just takes dedication. If you slip don't let yourself feel like a failure pick yourself back up and keep marching to the finish line. Cutting is not smart so if you CAN resist please do!

[Sapphire]

I never said that cutting is smart or anything like that.

I don't understand why you are all talking as if I really want to cut, am addicted and going to fall to pieces if I have something sharp in my hands. Can none of you see that I want to buy them to hold them in my hands and not to use them on my body?

[CaptainObvious]

To be honest that sounds about as convincing to me as a former alcoholic saying he'll just go down to the pub to "hold a beer". Your effusive assurance that you're not addicted to cutting is directly contradicted by your musing

I'm not sure how I can hide any cuts yet though.
Then again, am I sure that I want to cut?
Will just holding the blade help?

This sounds to me like someone who is very much wavering on the edge of cutting again... you would be doing it but that you'd get caught? Doesn't sound like you're over it to me...

Moreover, addiction is not about being unable to resist doing something; there are addicts of all kinds of stripes that resist their addictions for periods of time. No, the addiction is equally about the underlying desire to perform the action again, which, judging by your posts so far, you possess.

I'm sorry if I sound harsh, but I think you know deep down that buying blades is a bad idea and are looking to get someone to help you rationalize your way over that gut instinct. Stop and think your way out of this plan... it isn't going to help, and could easily hurt. Just make the right decision for the sake of yourself. :)

[Sapphire]

You seem to be missing the point of what an addiction is. I have had a number of addictions in my time and I can say with 100% certainty that I no longer have any. Addictions are characterised by the straining or breaking down of close relationships, an abnormally strong dependence on the thing in question and a sense of having no control over it.

How is it possible for me to be addicted:
(a) without it affecting my personal relationships
(b) without experiencing any type of adverse effect (e.g. anger and anxiety) when I am unable to do it
and (c) without being preoccupied with it for large amounts of time?

The answer is simple: I can't be.
No professional would ever agree with you that I am addicted based on my current situation.

[AllThatIsLeft]

maybe it isnt NOW.

but it is in your mind enough to post a thread on it.
and if you buy the blades you WILL cave, because they are there, because it's easy.

and if your not addicted to it now, you will become.

Do you really want to risk that?

[Rambo]

i woulldn't do it if I where you.

[CaptainObvious]

...well, I hope you're right. I really, really do. But buying blades is still an absolutely terrible idea for all the reasons people have given you, addict or not.

Maybe you'll never cut again, even if you spend every day of the rest of your life walking around with a blade. But I sort of doubt it. Even the strongest of us have weak moments; keeping the tools of your (previous?) addiction at hand will only worsen the consequences should you find yourself overwelmed or otherwise unable to resist down the road.

There's a reason you have not gotten a single answer that has said anything but a resounding no. But the bottom line is that you're an adult and this is the internet. Nothing I can or will do here will in any way materially affect whether or not you read this post, turn around and say "screw him, I'll do it anyways", so I'm going to stop arguing with you - arguments over whether or not you are addicted are not something I can or want to win, and in any case the question is sort of immaterial. The only thing I will say is this: we're 5 days out from the original post. If you haven't bought the blades by now, please follow the overwhelming advice you've gotten here and don't do it.

[Sapphire]

I'm amazed by your ability to not even trust my own judgement in relation to this topic. I am the one walking in my shoes so, if anyone is to understand and know where I am with this then it is me.

I know that buying blades would not be a good step. However none of you are giving me enough credit. Do you all really think I am a weak willed person or something? Do I really come across as someone who is very susceptible to temptation?

[AllThatIsLeft]

you want to talk about strong will, i will be the first to step in. strong will is NOT buying the blades.

you come here saying you want to buy blades, you know what the reaction will be.

"Don't, you will give in. You will cut."
If your so strongly willed and are so sure about it, dont post a thread where u know ur will WILL be doubted.

[Sapphire]

i created this thread because i needed to (at the time) get my thoughts out. i did not create this for some weird validation of said thoughts. i did not post this to be doubted. i did not post this to sound sure. i did not post this because i was thinking completely straightforward. and i certainly did not post this only to be told by randoms that i am addicted to something that i am not only to have them insist that i am.

[AllThatIsLeft]

this is a help site, if you post something people are going to try and help.

that is what happens when people cut, and people here are only trying to help you.
if your going to post a thread with questions, you have to accept that people will answer. and you may not like the answers you get.

[Sapphire]

the only thing in this thread that i havent liked is kids insisting that i am actually addicted to cutting and disregarding what im saying when it doesnt match their theory. helping someone is not insisting that you know more about their situation than they do.

anyway, the questions were more rhetorical and aimed at myself. and never did i ask "am i addicted?"

[scarstarz23]

you said you want to buy soem blades, so obviously you thought about it and wanted to do it. take it form me, once you start you cant stop. you think you wont cut that deep then you keep goin and you cut deeper. and getting away with it, well you only get away with it if you dont care what others think.

[scarstarz23]

...well, I hope you're right. I really, really do. But buying blades is still an absolutely terrible idea for all the reasons people have given you, addict or not.

Maybe you'll never cut again, even if you spend every day of the rest of your life walking around with a blade. But I sort of doubt it. Even the strongest of us have weak moments; keeping the tools of your (previous?) addiction at hand will only worsen the consequences should you find yourself overwelmed or otherwise unable to resist down the road.

There's a reason you have not gotten a single answer that has said anything but a resounding no. But the bottom line is that you're an adult and this is the internet. Nothing I can or will do here will in any way materially affect whether or not you read this post, turn around and say "screw him, I'll do it anyways", so I'm going to stop arguing with you - arguments over whether or not you are addicted are not something I can or want to win, and in any case the question is sort of immaterial. The only thing I will say is this: we're 5 days out from the original post. If you haven't bought the blades by now, please follow the overwhelming advice you've gotten here and don't do it.

well said. i like the way you put things. no need for all the bs, just get to it, you either do it or you dont.

[welcome_to_chaos]

dont even hold them...get rid of them. if there isnt anything to do it w u cant do it

[Aspiringanonymous]

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