overdosing.

[Fiending_the_freedom]

i don't know what happened last night.

i was wrapping gifts, and out of nowwhere i freaked out.

i went throught my drawers and grabbed a whole bunch of pills, and swallowed.

i'm not proud of what i did.

i have absolutly no clue why but i did it.

i swallowed 36 pills in total.

10 painkillers
11ibuprophens (not sure how to spell that)
and 15 benedryls.

benedryls make you sleepy, so after about 30 minutes i passed out.

i passed out a 7pm and woke up at 11am.

i think i threw up but i can't really remeber.
and i have no clue what went wrong.

but i do know i'm going to start trying to help myself stop cutting and other things.

[///James///]

o god i really hope your ok hun

sometimes i freak out and start like hitting myself, it hurts but i usually never resort to touchin a blade or anything.

sometimes the urge can come but you need to fight it. hope your k! x

[dying lullaby]

ok so here's what you should do next time this happens - hoping that it wont but being safe just incase.

-STAY AWAY from the Benedryl(i tried to off myself with them and i had to drink charcole and i was on a heart moniter for a while...it really messes up your heart

-don't ever take asprin or anything with asprin in it. it literally poisons your body and kills your liver if you take more than the recomended dose. so if you dont succede in your mission you will me hooked up to machines to filter your blood and keep you alive for the rest of your life.

-codine and perscription strength pain killers are very dangerous. they'll put you into a coma in which it will be very hard for you to wake up from.

ODing on most things will be very detremental to your health(obviously) so a good idea would be to go out and get some sugar pills (like what they sell in spencers) and if you want even put them in a regular pill bottle but take those instead of the real harmful pills. you will thank yourself later - trust me.

if you start to see blood in your stool go to the DR asap and tell them what you did, it will deff blow your cover but it may save you from alot of long term damage...and if you throw up again and see blood do the same thing - i mean it!

i hope you're ok. keep us posted on how you're doing

-Bri

[Fiending_the_freedom]

thanks guys, i feel ok now but my stomache really hurts and i've got a disgusting taste in my mouth *give thumbs down*

i'm defanitly going to take your advice :D

[///James///]

thats good that ur doin well, remeber we are here for ya! and you got my number (you sneeky git :P)

[Φρανκομβριτ]

we love you tegan! Please not again :(

[Fiending_the_freedom]

:O i'm ok now smelly cheese boy! :D