Really down.

[The Batman]

The past few days have been pretty bad. I've thought of more ways I could kill myself in two days than I have in my life. I just feel as if I'm losing hope and that it's starting to not matter anymore. Whatever was keeping me in this miserable life is starting to leave and that one way escape is calling me more and more. I don't want to make you guys think I'm going to kill myself I'm just saying that I'm losing the will to live.

[Mzor203]

At least you haven't acted on anything yet, which is good. We would be a lot worse off without you Pablo (;)), trust me.

What exactly is it that has given you "the will to live" up until now? Do you know what you are lacking which has left a hole there? Or is it just a wave of sadness/depression? If you can identify what it is, exactly, then it'll be easier to get back on track.

You just have to make an effort and get out there and do something. Occupy yourself, do something fun when you start to feel down, whatever it is that takes your mind off your mood. And if you aren't seeing something and you think this is serious, by all means try to see someone about this. A simple counselor may help you a bunch with your problems.

So, just hang in there and try to make things better. And if ya want you can always talk on MSN.

[byee]

What happened? What's going on?

Good days and bad ones, maybe this is just a rough patch. But why? Some details, thomas, we've been able to sort thru other things in the past, we can do it now, too.

[The Batman]

I can't really put it on one thing because it's everything. My past, present, and future. I think about the mistakes I've made and how it has affected everyone, I look at how I'm being treated now and how I'm to scared to do anything about it, and then i think about my life and what it should be in a few years but then I realize that it'll never be that way because of me. It's just hard to go through each day not having anything to live for. It's hard trying to make something out of your life when you have nothing. It's just hard being tormented by memories of things that you wish you could forget. I try my best to bottle it in and just keep it to myself so I don't bring everyone else down but why should I care about them if they don't care about me?

[Hyper]

Well if you don't care why the hell should anybody else care?

Everybody has something to live for.. Just when people get depressed they manage to convince themselves so strongly that they really have nothing to live for.

[byee]

Professor!

You're in college now, you've just started something new and exciting. It allows you a fresh start. Take that, you deserve it.

Don't focus on the past, get involved in the present, it's new, it's great, and you deserve it.

But maybe not with that grey wig.