I told my parents everything =/

[Septcutie26]

I used to carve/brand what ever you want to call
it last year. I did it for awhile. I was so irritated
and i seen people who done it and it made them feel
better. I picked up a safety pin and went at it.
I have scars of different words and pictures below my
stomach.

My parents are so upset, they dont know why i would
do something like this.

I have a good life, but to me i am never good enough.
When a person tells me something i take it personal
558764x harder. It sucks.

But i have stopped, but i do think about it.
When i did stop, i used rubber bands and snapped
them on my wrists when i got mad, it works.

Im going to counciling starting friday!



Am i retarded for ever doing it?
Who else has carved.

[byee]

Yay for you for telling your folks and for them getting you to a therapist, that took a lot of courage and good judgement! Here's one of my brownies, you deserve it!

You are most assuredly NOT 'retarded' for cutting, but you are in a lot of pain. people who hurt aren't 'retarded', and they shouldn't think of themselves that way. Your doc can help you better understand why you're in so much pain, and help you find other ways of dealing with it.

There are a lot of others here who struggle with cutting, I'm just not sure where they are now.......

.....................in the meantime, have another brownie.

[nick979]

Wow, it seems like you already seen a counselor! A counselor would have suggested the rubber band thing. They recommend someone snap a rubber band, around their wrist, if they have panic attacks, nausea, etc...

Great work!

I used to carve/brand what ever you want to call
it last year. I did it for awhile. I was so irritated
and i seen people who done it and it made them feel
better. I picked up a safety pin and went at it.
I have scars of different words and pictures below my
stomach.

My parents are so upset, they dont know why i would
do something like this.

I have a good life, but to me i am never good enough.
When a person tells me something i take it personal
558764x harder. It sucks.

But i have stopped, but i do think about it.
When i did stop, i used rubber bands and snapped
them on my wrists when i got mad, it works.

Im going to counciling starting friday!



Am i retarded for ever doing it?
Who else has carved.

[Barelythere]

i write things when i cut too, because just slashing away is only good when your full of rage, when you feel bad or what ever, you need to concentrate and work at it, luckily i dont scar very easliy and sun really helps to make them go away, im sorry you hurt, well done for telling your parents, and for having the courage to see a councelor, its tough, i know, good luck

[SingASadSong4408]

sweetie, its not just you, dont worry. And I'm glad you told your parents everything, and it is definitley not retarded of you to hav done so in the first place. I think we have all tried it at a time, and for some it seems to work, and for some it seems moronic. I'm glad youre getting help, and I totally understand the position you were in to begin in the first place.
Keep on Rocking girl! :yes:
---SingASadSong4408 (a.k.a. Carlie)

[Triceratops]

No way, you are not retarded for doing this. When I was about 13, I used carve horrible messages with needles down my arms and legs.

Good for you for stopping! And for having the guts to tell your parents everything. I never plucked up the courage to tell me parents ANYTHING. They just caught me cutting in my room, and they also noticed the scars and burns on my arms. I have tried using that technique (with the rubber band) but it just didn't work for me, it wasn't good enough, but I'm glad you're finding it helpful :)

You obviously have a lot of courage and strength, and I admire that :P
I hope your counsilling goes well too. Just tell them everything you told your parents and how you're feeling.

Stay strong sweetie :)

[peanutx]

You are definitely not retarded, it's just another form of self harm. I used to do that as well on my wrists and legs, the rubber band method worked for me as well. That is really good that you've told your parents, i know it was probably really hard but at least now you're getting yourself help.
:)

[karateka92]

I can relate to the fact that I've carved or whatever and I sortof feel like you did except I haven't told my parents yet.. I don't know if I should so good luck and keep up the good work;)

[Beautiful Obsession]

wow.. wel dun.. i wud neva hav da courage to tell my mum about cutting. she wud killl me!!

How did u do it.. did u just go up to her? mum im S/H?
good for u bbe xxx :)

[RaeNose]

I used to carve/brand what ever you want to call
it last year. I did it for awhile. I was so irritated
and i seen people who done it and it made them feel
better. I picked up a safety pin and went at it.
I have scars of different words and pictures below my
stomach.

My parents are so upset, they dont know why i would
do something like this.

I have a good life, but to me i am never good enough.
When a person tells me something i take it personal
558764x harder. It sucks.

But i have stopped, but i do think about it.
When i did stop, i used rubber bands and snapped
them on my wrists when i got mad, it works.

Im going to counciling starting friday!



Am i retarded for ever doing it?
Who else has carved.

Oh my goodness, I'm the exact same way. No matter what happens, my mother never thinks that I'm good enough. I always have to be perfect, 24/7. They won't even accept the fact that I used to be a porn addict or had an eating disorder. They advised me to join a sport, so that I'd feel better and get a letterman's jacket. What?! They completely ignored the fact that I was attempting to cut at that time. That was Freshman year, it's now Junior year, and my cutting has been really bad. I emotionally abused my boyfriend of over a year and used him as a counselor instead of the wonderful, sweet boy that I love. I never talk to girls, because they never understand. I only talk to guys, and then I manipulate and use them. I had to apologize to my friend, Michael, and he still hasn't forgiven me, I don't think. I keep losing people and no one will help me get help, not even the two people who are supposed to love you more than anyone in the whole world.

[Prince_of_Peace]

I have no doubt in my mind that the self physical pain you are giving yourself is notthing compared to the emptiness and desolation of loneliness. Pain astleast gives you something to feel, unlike loneliness that makes us feel nothing and numb. The truth is, we all feel the same way and there is no quick solotion to it. It has to start from the inside you..and inside me. You know, it is easy for us to say things that hurt other people..and we end up building this shell around us to protect us. This shell gets thicker and thicker untill we don't feel any more. All I have to say is that there is that you were once a child and a wounded one too. You have to take care of that little child inside you..that is you. That little child has been calling your name for so long for attention and love. Love that child that is inside you. Love yourself. I am so confident you can help people like yourself, for you have been so alone. YOu know what it feels like. Love yourself...that is the greatest love of all. You have so much....so much ahead of you. I am sure you make a good conselor and super best friend in the future. SAY YES TO YOUR SELF.

[BuryYourFlame]

congrats on telling ur parents :)
must have taken a lot of strength, i admire you for it, it is something that i will never be able to do.
in no way are you 'retarded' for self harming. there are plenty of people out there just like you, including me, sorta, i dont carve, but i have cut multiple times.
i hope that ur councellor will help you through this :)
all the best

[Toilet Water.]

I've "carved". It is stupid to do it in the first place, but it is very smart, very mature, very brave to tell your parents about it. I think you've done the right thing by doing so. Don't feel bad about it, a lot of other have too. The thing that matters is that you're getting help.

[RaeNose]

Quick question, what's the difference between "cutting" and "carving"?