kuyerjudd_v3
February 2nd, 2009, 03:09 AM
Okay, so there's this girl at school. I really, really like her, like, she's all I can think about. It's been 9 months now since I told her that I like her. I've tried almost everything that I am capable of to try and get her to believe that I really do like her. Talk about 67 poems, a thousand-worded ballad, and a four hundred-paged novel.
And when I decided that I wanted to give up on her, I ended up--for a month or two--cutting myself, over and over again; but stopped eventually. I remember there being a time when I almost wanted to force myself into being gay--or bisexual at the least:D--but nothing. I try forcing myself into other girls, but still its the thought of her that constantly piles up in my head.
I'm the sensitive type of guy. You know, the short, feeble, un-hot guy. I'm not a jock or anything, I'm just me.
Valentine's day is my last shot at this, so I can't mess anything up. I don't know if writing the entire thousand-worded ballad on a roll of tissue paper is sweet or just overly corny; maybe even sick and twisted, in a way.:lol:
I need advice. I don't know whether I should give up on her or not. I either need need help on how to get over her, or how to make her heart melt...
And when I decided that I wanted to give up on her, I ended up--for a month or two--cutting myself, over and over again; but stopped eventually. I remember there being a time when I almost wanted to force myself into being gay--or bisexual at the least:D--but nothing. I try forcing myself into other girls, but still its the thought of her that constantly piles up in my head.
I'm the sensitive type of guy. You know, the short, feeble, un-hot guy. I'm not a jock or anything, I'm just me.
Valentine's day is my last shot at this, so I can't mess anything up. I don't know if writing the entire thousand-worded ballad on a roll of tissue paper is sweet or just overly corny; maybe even sick and twisted, in a way.:lol:
I need advice. I don't know whether I should give up on her or not. I either need need help on how to get over her, or how to make her heart melt...