Fourth suicide attempt in the last two weeks... I won't die D:

[pyromantick]

I don't know what to do anymore. I've wanted to die for the past nine years... for the past four I've been drinking myself into feeling nothing and I was fine being a zombie. Then someone pulled me out of it and made me feel again, then abandoned me here. I can't deal with this and I can't make myself not feel, and I won't die!!!!!!! I have no idea what's next. I can't face another day, anymore of this bullsh*t. I think I might be in the middle of a mental breakdown.

[nick979]

Why are you trying to kill yourself?

[pyromantick]

I don't want to be alive anymore. Every day is like wading through mud for no reason and I don't see the point in being alive if I have to go through all this crap for, ultimately, nothing.

[nick979]

I understand life is no piece of cake. It can have its ups and downs. Even with the problems you are encountering now, I KNOW YOU HAVE HAD GOOD TIMES at some point in your life. Think about those, live by those. Everyone has a purpose to live. Try and think about that.

Ultimately, seek a counselor.

I don't want to be alive anymore. Every day is like wading through mud for no reason and I don't see the point in being alive if I have to go through all this crap for, ultimately, nothing.

[pyromantick]

The miniscule amount of good times I have had are not worth the crap times I've been through. I've been diagnosed with depression and have been referred to cognitive behavioral therapy but I don't see the point. It's not going to change my life.

[Oblivion]

The only thing to do at this point is get professional help.
You can enjoy life! You just gotta talk to someone.

[nick979]

That's why you feel this way! Depression!

Contact a doctor for further medical review.

The miniscule amount of good times I have had are not worth the crap times I've been through. I've been diagnosed with depression and have been referred to cognitive behavioral therapy but I don't see the point. It's not going to change my life.

[LaLa]

honestly, go check out a doctor. there are some days and i feel like i hate my psychologist and that she is out to get me, but when it all comes down to it talking with someone that won't judge you really helps....

[Triceratops]

We don't WANT you to die. Just promise me you'll hang in there a little longer.

I've come to realise that life is actually worth living, and it's up to you to make it that way. We have too much to be grateful for, and yet we don't notice it. It's about time we DID notice it. Focus on the positive things, just concentrate on them really hard and try your best to forget of the negative things, it may sound difficult but just give it a shot. By doing this you'll realise that your life is worth living and that you DO want to see another day. And it's a good thing someone got you out of drinking because in that way it could seriously mess with your health and wellbeing, not good.

If this doesn't help, I suggest you see a pyschiatrist or seek some sort of medical support.

Good luck :)

[ECGBUnni]

hey, i can't say i know exactly how you feel. I don't, but there was a point in my life where I couldn't find a reason to live. Where there wasn't one specific situation that drove me to depression. Where all I saw was monotony, negativity, etc. and I didn't want to bother any more. I had very few, if any friends and I didn't care about schools, futures, and such.

*You* can make it out of this mess. In the end we all can

Believe it or not, there are physiological reasons for your feelings. It's not just "in your head." You can't actually control these feelings. By going to get help, you can fix that problem. They're not miracles, I still don't get why I'm living, or if life ever gets better, but I can tell you confidently that i have something to live for now. I have a passion to live for. I still take little white pills to keep me from breaking down, but there is a way out.

*you* can make it. You *will* make it. There are more people out there that would miss you than you could ever imagine.

[Cloud]

Life is a life. live for the good forget the bad. before you try just think of every possobility that may be yours. happiness is for everyone adn all it takes is for you to try to get it. Anyway if ur having all the shit stuff now then the good is due, for every bad thing there is a good thing and since ur having the crap now u will have a great future ahead of you.

[zoig]

STay with us, it will get better soon.
There are people who will help and support you.