Why is living so hard?

[Underground_Network]

Damn, why is living so hard? You would think life would be easy. And I don't mean life like a social life and happiness and all that shit, I mean actually living.

Every day I feel pain, emotional, physical, etc... I'm most likely just an f-ing hypochondriac, but the reason I think that I'm not is I feel pain all over (and I mean my mom has tons of medical problems and shit, so I'm likely to as well) and I don't complain about... And from what i know of hypochondriacs when they feel pain they need other people to hear about it. Everyone needs to know that they're sick/injured, but I'm not like that (often).

Nowadays when I hurt I don't tell anyone. Sometimes during the school day I just feel like dying, and not [just] because my life is shit but because I just can't breathe, I can't think, my head hurts, my feet hurt, my chest hurts, etc... I've almost fainted/collapsed several times during school without anyone realizing it. I don't know what's wrong with me there...

But then again I just overanalyze everything. I look so into things that it hurts my head and just drives me over the edge. Everything upsets me, everything fucks with my mind. I can't handle anything any more. When life is this painful, I just want to end it.

My dad derides me everyday, I don't have a very strong social life (I have a lot of "friends", I just don't hang out with them that much, and its not because of VT, its because of my personality and how my mind works, etc.), I hurt all over, I get migraines all the time, I can't think straight all too often, I have no true passions (writing doesn't even please me any more)... I have nothing that motivates me, nothing that truly makes me happy, no one in my life that truly loves me, no one that cares about me.

No one gives a fuck, no one real. The world is fucked up. There's no improving our conditions. Nothing does anything anymore. Everyone is an asshole. My best friend is a klepto. My dad is a compulsive liar. Even my mom has done things wrong. No one is perfect, and the ultimate goal is perfection. How can an army of imperfect people perfect an imperfect world? Its an impossibility.

Nothing is worth living for any more. Is there anything worth dying for? Not necessarily. But thus we meet the paradox that is life. There is no reason to live. There is no reason to die. So why not fade into a nonsensical subreality? Why the fuck does anything matter any more? I'm so close to dying, so close to living... I don't know which to do... Why live? If someone can give me a true, valid reason to live, I won't even contemplate suicide, but otherwise, I say my time up in something like 168 hours...

[Wolf Teen]

No! Do not even think about it. I know life is full of pain. It hurts, it sucks. I know, because beleive it or not, i live it every day. Yes, I'm a hypocrite. I've tryed to take my life. I've begged whatever force there is to kill me. But, if you need anyone to rant on ect, I'm here. I know life stinks beyond beleif.

[Hyper]

The ultimate goal, perfection? Thats a very bad goal since you'll never achieve it and even if you were to achieve it you could never have any more goals and then your life would become dull

There is plenty worth living for and plenty worth dying for.

Everybody has a different reason why they live. Some people have clear reasons why they want to live some people were just lucky enough to experience a joyful life since birth so they've never given it much thought

I live for my own reasons. And for a long time many many years I lived without any dreams or any reasons to live, I was a living a shell and the only thing I could ironically do as this shell was feel pain.

The most simple and cliche reason to live is simply because we can't experience happiness without some pain and if we end our life ourselves then what do we have? Nothing no pain no happiness no joy, nothing

In your depressed state of mind you might think thats just how you want it. But just think about not existing at all or from religious concepts most likely going to hell either way you loose any chance to feel any happiness, realize any of your dreams, achieve any of your goals.

And think about all the things that make you happy or give you some peace of mind. There is something for everyone no matter how tough, depressed, sad, fucked up, twisted they may be..

Nobody can give you a solid reason to live because all our reasons are different. Some people live to hurt others, some people live to help others, some people live only for themselves. But one thing is clear the only people that are really alive have dreams.

And another thing I know is, that its horrible to live without a dream or any goals in your life. I simply kept on living because I didn't want to give up, I didn't want to hurt the only people that care about me, even if it often seemed like they didn't care or that they even wanted to hurt me.

I just kept on going and thinking and thinking untill I came to a realization that I had a dream and that I had always had it with me, I was just so depressed that I kept telling myself that I had nothing untill I started beliving it.

The point is that indeed life is hard. But I've never done anything easy that truly made me happy. Nothing really worth living for is ever easy at first and finding something worth living for is even harder.

But giving up and throwing away all your chances is the most easiest thing to do and the most hurtful thing to do, to those around you.

No matter what you think somebody cares. But what really matters is that you care for yourself and that you don't give up no matter how fucked up things seem and no matter how hopeless they seem.

[Duhya]

Drown yourself in video games, tv shows (animes because theres craploads of em on the internet) and play online on the video games if you can. I'm sure if you try to ignore it and immerse yourself in entertainment, you can find something you love to do at some point.

[triplethreat40]

I know exactly what you mean. I still ask myself that question every once and a while, but i generally just don't think about it.

every man dies, but not every man truly lives- william wallace a la braveheart

so what i'm trying to say is that there is something worth living for somewhere. Try just living for someone, be it the love of your life, a half dozen of your closest friends, or just a small child in africa.

Obviously there has to be something that you can't do in the afterlife(if you believe in it), so try and make the most of your time here. Organize a huge costume party and immerse yourself in planning all the little details, and then enjoy yourself there. nothing is more destracting than trying to plan a big event.

But no matter how well you ignore it, you will have to square with these questions some day. Try to find a place of simple beauty and meditate on it. take notes on your thought prosses any way you feel like.

[ILOVEYOU]

this is what we didn't choose, we all have to live