I wonder who I would be

[nachtspiegel]

If I had never started. Too many people now know that I struggle with this and I feel that I can never redeem myself. It has been 12 years and I thought that eventually, I would get past it. I feel like this is a deep part of my personality that I will never be able to fix. Do you ever feel this way? Do you ever wonder what you would be like if this had never taken over your life?

[Triceratops]

Yes, I feel like this all the time.
I guess this is all just part of who we are, and it's something we have to deal with.
We all will get better one day, just one day.

[Hyper]

I wonder if.. How.. Why, what could've been what could be

All irrelevant questions that can drive you to the brink of insanity

What could be doesn't matter what really matters is what you want to be

There are limitless possibilities of what could've happened if you hadn't done this or that :P

But yes I too sometimes drive myself insane with these questions

[peanutx]

I don't wonder often about who i would be if i never started, i wonder often about who i would be if i never stopped. It's been 2 and a half years since the last time i self injured myself and yes it is hard to get past it but sooner or later you do get there. I used to feel very ashamed when someone noticed my scars since i stopped wearing the bracelets and long sleeves... but over time i began to accept that this who i am and that is who i was.
Over time this will be something fixed, you won't forget it and sometimes you'll feel the itch to do it again, but it's up to you to let the past stay in the past. And to let yourself look forward to the future.

[kittiegocrazy]

I often think I'd be the same either way... Like... The same girl, only minus the scars. All my insecurities and issues would still be there. Just the scars wouldn't be on my arms. At least that's what I think most of the time. :/

Other times, I think totally different.


But yes, to answer the question.. Yes I do question some things about if I'd never done harm to myself.