mom saw cuts

[dying lullaby]

i just came down stairs in a tank top, forgetting that i had cut the other night and now my mom saw the deep gashes on my arm and she's flipping out on me....demanding to know why i am cutting and all this stuff. all i can say is to leave me alone and try not to cry...for some reason its getting me very emotional. its just horrible, horrible.

GAH! now she came in the room and saw that i'm on "a cutting site" as she called it and she's flipping even more...well she was but she left the room now...this is deff horrible

[kolte]

maybe you will get help now hun. maybe, just maybe, this will save your life. *hugs*

[Waiting]

im really sorry about that hunny
you have to stay strong
talkt o her if you want
but its pretty obvious you dont want to
so just cover your arms over
block the door
and jus make sure she calms it before she talks to you
but whatever you do
stay strong
xxxxx

[dying lullaby]

yeah talking is not an option...she just doesnt understand. she thinks there has to be one concrete reason as to why i do this and there isnt one...there are a million reasons why i do this and i couldnt name one of them.
i'm not going to get help b/c she knows i am cutting again...if anything she'll try to make me go back to the hospital over christmas break and that'll do no good, the hospital is only there to keep ppl from suicide then they let them go...i would get out in a week tops if i behaved myself...if i decided to act like i've been acting i could stay longer. but i dont want to so they'll just see the 'perfect' side of brianna...i am so cynical tonight, sorry guys

[kevo720]

this happened to my frined bought a mounth ago her mom flipped obisally
so like her mom kinda lost it and my frined asked if she could go spend time with dad for wile (in other state) and she had a great time she still recovering but she is less indapendent on it now

what a happy ending for her

[Valeurs]

I think it would be best if you told your mom to shut up and sit down. Also say that you don't need any of her lip.