How did you feel after?

[Dark Angel 26]

Hey everyone. As you probably may know, I'm now back, after I had some problems over Christmas. Well...Blimey it's difficult to talk about this.
Even though I'm back home now, and back in college and all the rest of it, I'm still not doing very well. I'm still cutting.:blue:
But I feel really...Weird. It's hard to explain. Part of me is glad that my suicide attempt didn't, you know...Work out. But there's the other part of me that wishes that it had, because I still feel bad.
I also feel really guilty as well. Because I put my family through a rough old time. And when I got back to college, I had my teacher talking to me, did I have a nice Christmas and all that, you know?
And even though he knows a little bit about what's been going on, I found that I couldn't say anything about what happened. I ended up lying to him, saying Yes, I had a nice Christmas. If anything, that made me feel worse, lying, because what I wanted, most in the world, was to just...Break down. Tell him absolutely everything.
Has anybody else tried it? How did anyone else feel afterwards?

[ShatteredGlass]

Genrally I am a very reserved person, I'm open with things that dont matter, things i dont care about but when it comes to how i feel and why i cut i shut down faster than the lights in a room when the circuit breaks. I didnt try to i didnt even want to but I have broken down and cried and just let it all out on a few occassions, and honestly you feel so much better after. That weight that's on your chest and weighing down your stomcah, it dissapears, you feel like you're walking on air when you let it all out, because when you do, you realize it's not just you ne more that there are people who care, who will listen. You should try sometime (just make sure it's to a trusting person not someone who'll talk about it or hold it over your head, or threaten to share it with the world :) ) When you do try it though, you wont feel so...you know, alone.

[Triceratops]

I know the feeling.
You either bottle it all up inside, or you tell the whole world your problems.
And I always feel like this when I try to attempt suicide, one part is like "YAY I didn't do it !" but another is "wtf there's no point in living anymore, i wish i had suceeded." I find it hard to deal with, one extreme to the other really.

Right now, I'm struggling to tell people how I really feel. I want people to think I'm happy and content but I don't think I am. I think I'm just too ashamed of myself to admit to my feelings.

[ShatteredGlass]

Arent we all....

[Sapphire]

I have only attempted once. I stopped myself part way through it when I realised that I didn't want to die. For me, the whole experience was scary but enlightening. I know now that no matter what life throws at me I can fight through it.