Loss Of Meaning

[ViciousScheme]

I know i'm not as troubled and in need of help as these guys, but I just feel awful. I feel like I cant even continue because school is just ingesting me. I cant keep up, im not getting good grades. I'm trying my hardest. I have nowhere else to turn. Sure it sounds cliche, but im generally sick of living. There's just no meaning any more. I have no girlfriend, im constantly harassed about my height (5' at age 15, sophomore) I don't have many friends. The few that I do don't even listen to me any more. My family is fucked up, nobody cares about each other anymore. Were just drifting from each other. People say I have "the good life" just because of my material possessions, but thats nothing. The giant weight I carry on a daily basis is starting to make ponder running away. I would never kill myself, I just feel like I don't fit in ANYWHERE. Can anyone lend me advice for my current situation? Im just run ragged, I have no life any more. No time to actually live. Im not talking seeing movies every Fridays with my friends. Just stopping for a second to catch my breath would be great. :(

[Hyper]

Well the only thing I can suggest is don't go at things alone. People usually get where you are because they want to go at everything alone and refuse to accept help.

If your trying as hard as you can at school and still doing bad look for a different approach/method. I mean heck your atleast trying thats the biggest part.... You have the willpower and desire to do better ^^

'' I have no girlfriend '' well thats a minor problem.. Girlfriends will appear when the time is right. And don't worry about being short either, and don't let people get to you.. Theres no reason to worry or sweat over something you can't change.

The only thing I see as your actualy problem is stress.. To put it simply you seem overwhelmed with responsibilities and the expectations of others.. You need to live life for yourself its a simple fact, whats important to you is also up to you.

[Sapphire]

I know how it feels to be where you are now, but trust me when I say that it won't last forever.

Take a moment each day to do something for yourself. It doesn't matter whether you have a relaxing bath, read a book you enjoy or watch a really good film. All that matters is that you do at least one thing each day to make your own existence seem a bit more pleasurable.

I don't know what the area you live in is like. But if there's a wood or park nearby then you can always take yourself there to sit and experience nature. I find that sometimes just being surrounded by greenery helps ease negative feelings.

What you can always try to do to provide some meaning is look into volunteering opportunities. Look to see if there are projects in your area that you can volunteer at. If you really care about the project you will find a sense of meaning from it.

Keep hanging on in there. Things will improve for you. Be good to yourself

[xXJDXx]

i have a friend whos a junior and 4'11". he makes up for his small physical height by having a huge personaltiy.

and i can relate with school. my parents always push me to do better than my best. its tough.

girlfriends arent a big deal either. most people ur age dont have girlfriends. as long as u have friends its ok.

thingsll turn up i promise. u hav stressful times n u have better times. life is like a cycle. there are ups n there are downs.

[byee]

Take a deep breath, and realize all this teen stuff is (mercifully!) temporary. Soon, it will all be over, and you'll be on your own path with the people you choose, doing what you want. Make plans for that now, set goals, look towards tomorrow, it gives hope and it's a great motivator and provides a distraction from your current stress.

The things that are overwhelming to you now, that need immediate relief, prioritize them, put them in a list, and then come up with a plan to address them. We might be able to help with the 'plan' part.

When there's just a whole lot of *stuff* it looks and feels insurmountable, and taken on a whole, it might be. But, as they say, the whole is equal to the sum of it's parts, so if you break that whole mess up into more manageable parts, you might be able to accomplish some things which can alleviate the stress, one by one.

[Art_dude]

I understand how you feel. I used to have some major conditional depression where I contemplated suicide (which eventually through therapy went away) but a few months after I experienced similar situation called dysimmia (sp?)
Basically like you said you can't find much meaning in life or the things you do. Also trying really hard in school and not getting anywhere is the worst feeling in the world especially when people criticize you for 'not trying' when really you are trying the best you can.

My advice for you (which worked for me) is to breathe. If you are of a particular religion or spiritual practice, try delving into that. I myself a buddhist, I began my meditation practice on a more regular basis and read A LOT about depression both buddhist philosophy and western psychology. You don't have to be a buddhist to meditate though: try meditation for a few minutes everyday: it is a really interpersonal exercise. Also, give yourself something to look forward to: I would promise myself a chocolate bar at the end of the week or a warm cup of tea at the end of a hard day. It helps to set these little 'goals' to get you through a terrible day at school. I hope this helps! I hope you get through this!