Facing The Demons

[Zephyr]

Well, you heard correctly.
That's my goal this weekend.

A lot of what's going on with me is due to repressed memories.
I really realized this last weekend when I was in my old room in my dad's basement and freaked out.
I had a lot of bad memories of when I lived there coming back to me.

So I've decided to spend my weekend in my dad's basement,
Confronting these memories face on by reliving the past,
And writing about it in my thought journal for my Psychologist.
It may help me properly get over what I went through.

It's going to be tough,
I know that there's going to be tears,
And some freaking out.
But it's something that I think that I need to do.
To 'correct' what went wrong,
So I can be at peace with it.


Odd, I know.
But meh.

/d.tsyhgkfv

[Atonement]

I honestly think its a good idea. As long as you remain safe. Like, if you start to freak the fuck out, just step outside, calm down, then go hang out again. I just don't want you to put yourself in a situation that could make you unsafe. Good luck!

[byee]

Make sure you face your demons properly dresed in warm clothing and with some chocolate.

This is going to be difficult for you, Steph. All alone, on a weekend. make sure you have some clear objectives, set realistic expectations for yourself, and be extra nice to yourself afterwards!

[thiscityisdead]

just be strong, i may not know you as well as some of these people here, but i know you can make it through the weekend, just dont put urself in danger, like the above said just step outside n calm down then resume doing whatever in your old room.

[Viral Death]

I hope that you can face those demons that are in you life I have demons in my life but I sent them accualy I mean him to prison

[Fiending_the_freedom]

thats a really great step, you can do it!
:)

[Zephyr]

So I failed and succeeded at the same time...

Fail: I got very side tracked because I had friends calling me all weekend to hang out or just talk. And I failed to get more in touch with that younger me that's causing all of this. I can't force her to come out, and that's the problem. She comes out when she wants to. She's on the verge of spilling out at this moment, but I'm so exhausted that I won't be able to deal with it.

Succeed: Didn't cut, felt at ease, was more social and happy and I figured out what 'blue lights' meant (long story) and felt like I made a little bit of peace with myself.

[Gumleaf]

i think the success outweighes the failure here steph even though you are left with a blank sheet of paper to work with. no cutting and a good time with friends gives you that little bit of happiness that you need, and a good boost.