Headaches

[shadow_moses]

It seems now since I last tried to quit, that the smell of marijuana gives me headaches, but still in my opinion smells so good. Now whenever I'm at school if I recognize the smell of pot, I just want to linger in it and it's making it hard for me to stay honest to myself and to keep away from it. Plus the girlfriend who is major anti-drug, and I just celebrated my 1 year anniversary with has me pressured not to do it, but it's just so tempting getting away from her and.. now I'm rambling and really just need to figure out a way to get away from it. And I still haven't told her about the last time I smoked with my brother's girlfriend waiting for him to take us to Sacramento. Just, ghaaahh... I need to tell her, but I just keep hoping maybe I will forgive me too, and so far no luck.

[byee]

Yeah, I remember that slip a while back, and I also remember my advice: Your girlfriend does not function as a 'Confessional', or your mother, you do not need to report a lapse in judgement to her, unless she specifically asks. What you might need to do is make sure your redouble your efforts to stay clean by using extra self discipline and willpower. That is the mature way to honor a committment, not report a transgression so you can get punished by her.