Does anyone cut because they feel they deserve it?

[ShatteredGlass]

Does ne one cut because they feel deserve it? Because I do. I feel like I'm such a screw up, so far fallen from where i should be. I hurt the people around me constantly and if no one punish's me for my screwed up actions...Then who will? Accept for me. Cutting for me, is a way to punish myself, and a way to vent. I feel like I deseve it. Am I the only one? Because when i look at the posts where a person explains why they cut, i sure feel like the only one.

[chelsay13]

yeah i do.
i feel like i'm screwing life up and i suck at it.

[eikookmi]

I dont cut myself to punish myself.
I can't explain it.
A powerful form of venting perhaps?
Plus i enjoy it.

[Atonement]

You're definately not the only one. But that is probably one of the more dangous ways because if you have ever heard the phrase, "You are your own worst critic." So, if you are the hardest person on yourself, you will be the worst on yourself in regards of "punishment"

Be careful. :daisy: If you ever need anything. PM me.

[Triceratops]

The vast majority of the time I do.
I always tell myself that I'm a f*ck up and I deserve all the pain I get.
It's horrible :( it's been going on for years. But there are so many other reasons in to why I harm myself.

If you ever need to talk, PM me. :)

[byee]

I'm not sure why any one you would feel you deserve life threatening pain. It's a very bad distortion of something, no one 'deserves' that kind of pain.

I think it's important to not just identify the motivation for the things you do, b/c that can easily be misinterpreted as a justification of it. Esp. when you hear *others* do it for similiar reasons, it often tends to doubly reinforce something that shouldn't be.

It' s important to first recoognize that for *whatever* reasons you're cutting, they're all very bad reasons, and you should actively fight the urge to give in and cut. There is nothing you could have possibly done to justify that level of self harm and punishment.

You are worth joy. Everyone is entitled to be happy and to live. Focus more on that, figure out ways to nurture that part of yourself, rather than the misperceived 'Bad' part.

And keep working in therapy, find out why you feel you somehow are not deserving of the basic rights of others.

[Hyper]

Everybody cuts because they feel they deserve it one way or the other, consciously or subconsciously

Your completly normal among the considerably un-normal

[ShatteredGlass]

Thanks guy, all of your stories and advice helps a lot

[just-me]

hmm i cut for so many reasons.
to vent my emotions when it all gets too much, the power of having somethin in my life i can control, the sight of blood is some how exillerating to me (yes im weird) but also to punish myself when i screw up.
its all deficult to stop though and when you start gettin bad it only gets worse.
it so difficult because everyone around me tells me its bad but its controlled, its never life threatenin but still, i hate it the next morning when i wake up.
sorry if none of this makes sense my head is just kinda scrambled right now :)

[ShatteredGlass]

hmm i cut for so many reasons.
to vent my emotions when it all gets too much, the power of having somethin in my life i can control, the sight of blood is some how exillerating to me (yes im weird) but also to punish myself when i screw up.
its all deficult to stop though and when you start gettin bad it only gets worse.
it so difficult because everyone around me tells me its bad but its controlled, its never life threatenin but still, i hate it the next morning when i wake up.
sorry if none of this makes sense my head is just kinda scrambled right now :)

You are so not weird for feeling like it gives you control. For me i started that way, with control, but now ive lost it. And all of that does make sense...who knows maybe my head its scrambles 2.

[AllThatIsLeft]

hmm i cut for so many reasons.
to vent my emotions when it all gets too much, the power of having somethin in my life i can control, the sight of blood is some how exillerating to me (yes im weird) but also to punish myself when i screw up.
its all deficult to stop though and when you start gettin bad it only gets worse.
it so difficult because everyone around me tells me its bad but its controlled, its never life threatenin but still, i hate it the next morning when i wake up.
sorry if none of this makes sense my head is just kinda scrambled right now :)

I dont cut but i get that exilleration when i see blood. makes me want to see more, I been very close to cutting but i dont act on it. The only time i cant control myself is when i get hurt and blood comes out. immidiatly i want to see more so i force myself to bleed more.

Wierd but True =\