Gumleaf
January 8th, 2009, 11:03 PM
i know it. i'm just too clingy to my friends. but because they are great people, they never say anything, but i know. i know i must be annoying, all i talk about is myself and my self pity. i never say anything out loud but when i get like this, but i resent it when my friends don't have time to talk to me but what makes it stupid is even then, if they do try to talk, i just push them away and say i'm alright when i'm not. why am i so messed up? why do i go like this? i hate myself sometimes, i hate what i do to myself, to my friends. these people must be awesome friends and love me a lot, because i don't think any normal person in their right mind would want to put up with the crap i carry on with. i don't deserve friends, i don't deserve anything. i hate being clingy like this, i hate it hate it hate it. :cry:
end of rant. sorry :(
end of rant. sorry :(