Feeling a bit depressed

[wavey]

hi, i am diagnosed as being on the autisctic spectrum but its more behavioural than mentally, but recently ih ave been feeling depressed with my tablets, of the tablets was taking away anxiety, anyway, instead of bein dependant i stopped then, which doctor said was ok to after i explained the situations, i've always been careful about myself and my parents. i always like to know what when where and who with them.. :)

which is annoying on they're side, i also do 2 night seperate nights, dormetry at school. now since last night was the first day back i was sleeping so i have had 3 weeks @ home and then suddenly back into dorm, it felt like a big schock to me and i started busting out crying and shit, it was awful, i dunno why, i think it was becausei had my new phone and i was hiding it, andi wanted it at home so it was safe, i kept checking to see if it was wastill in my drawer.

so eventually i went up into the main lounge in tears and i ended up just chatting about it with a female member of staff who is very nice and i enjoy her company, we chatted and had a hot cup fo tea, boy i bet ther est was jelous :)


but i never told her about my phone and the morning i got boloocking for lying,

Anyway, now one day on, i feel the same but i'm at home but my step dad is at work doing 6-6 which i'm not bothered about because he normally does it, my mom is in the house so its not that thats making me feel like this, now my next dorm night is thursday, i dont think i have the strength to go through with it, should i maybe come off the dorm and stop back a few nights for activitiess and my Duke of edinburgh to work back into sleeping?

since tomorrow night i have to stop back for my Duke Of Edinbourgh, and its an important one, so i wont be home until 7:30 which my mom should be in,

I am no longer taking my mobile into school because i'm scared of it getting broken alw=though everyone else in the school just breaks them and gets a new one, i'm differnt, i lilek to keep the things my mom had bought me for crimbo, birthday, i dont wanna break them the firdt month i get them.

Now my Q is, am i depressed, my mom knows about this because i've been feeling like it for a while but it was oK over crimbo rexcept mom went out alot with work for do's and meals. now shouldi go back on my opills on a lower dose and see how i feel, i am considering keepingo ff the dorm for a week or 2... i mean, it wouldnt affect me except my mom would be at work until 9:20 which wouldnt bother me because when i get in at around 7:40 i could walk to the youthclub where shes working to have a bit of fun and then help tidy up, i mean, i am thinking about coming off the dorm all together, ill have to talk to the head of care tomorrow, i'm 15 (just) can you all give me a bit of advice, please :|

[byee]

Hi Wavey,

I think I understand all this. There are a few issues here which are coming up at once: There's the seperation from home/mum, there's the medication issue, and there's the transition issue (going from living at home to getting used to living in the dorm, the 'transition' is the time in between).

I think you and mum and perhaps your doctor that's presecribing the meds should sit down and discuss all three issues. If the meds made you feel better, or if the doc thinks there's a different med that might work, that might be of benefit, you might consider it. It might help calm you and make you feel better, which would be of help here. So, it might help smooth the transition, and help you tolerate the seperation with mum better. If not, then maybe the doc can work out schedule to help you ease into the dorm better, a schedule of when you're home, and when you're in the dorm, increasing the time at the dorm as you get more comfortable with it, and having mum available to you on those other days when you're home. Some people can jumo into the pool at the deep end, you might be one of those who wades in slowly from the shallow end. That's OK, just build it into the plan so you can work yourself into that deeper end!

I also like the idea of you having someone at the dorm to talk too, maybe on a regular basis. is there some kind of counselor/therapist there for you? Especially since it was helpful talking this time, it might be a good resource on an ongoing basis.

Talk with mum about this, and meet with the doctor and see if there's a plan that can address you discomfort.

[wavey]

Thanks sam, i didnt realise ud get back so fast, i've never had a post from u before xD ur good. :P

Do you like my idea of coming of the dorm until i am ready to go back on? but sum lad i was talkin on msn was saying, he'll replace u - sum1 will take ur space, i was like, i ve got enough things to worry about, the last thing is losing a spot on the dorm its commiing worse and worse as the weeks go on tbh..

[byee]

I think there are options here, and you and your mum should decide what's best for you based more on how you feel, rather than the availability of that dorm space. There's not much sense holding onto it, only to be so agitated and depressed that you either cannot stay there, or are just plain miserable and can't attend to your other responibilities.

Come up with a plan wiht mum, call the doc about the meds, and make a decision based on a plan for what will make you feel best and make the dorm experience work for you.