I faint at the sight of blood

[dead_serenity]

i faint at the sight of blood, its the only thing that keeps me from self harming! its sorta good thing to faint at the sight of blood cause i wouldn't self harm and i get to miss those science lessons when they prick their fingers (*cringe*)! i normally think about committing suicide instead, I'm bullied, I'm gay and i always wanted to see if there is life after death (i don't believe in tht stuff), i dont know what to do, i just want to die (i listen to death rock and read grim deathly books etc.) i dont know what to do, im really shy so wont talk to any1 especially my mum, brother sister (family)...what do i do (soz this is sooo long :D)

[Sapphire]

If you are being bullied, talk to someone. Tell your friends, your parents, a teacher, anyone. You do not have to suffer and go through this alone. You can reach out and get help.
I was bullied for almost the whole time I spent at school (5 years old - 16 years old) and keeping quiet about it doesn't help. Telling someone can make such a difference in how you feel and in how the situation is handled. If you can't summon the courage to tell someone face-to-face, why not write them a letter?

Being homosexual isn't cause for suicide. You love other guys. That's all there is to it. If you can accept that as part of yourself then that is half of the battle. Other people's attitudes can leave a lot to be desired, but you can work around that. You are a good person who happens to be different to the majority of the population. You aren't a bad person just because they don't like your sexual orientation.

Maybe you would find benefits from speaking to a counsellor about these things. It is really worth considering because of how low you are feeling.
Hope that you are safe.

[dead_serenity]

tnx alot i cant get myself to talk to friends etc. so ill try the school couciler something ive always wanted 2 do

[Triceratops]

Being bullied for your orientation is so wrong. I despise homophobes so much. They only bully because they haven't matured yet and they have no understanding whatsoever. But I know how you feel, I feel like I truly want to die a lot of the time and really close to suicide, but I love blood (I know that sounds kinda bad) and I constantly harm myself.

I strongly advise you go and talk to a close friend or a member of family that you feel comfortable with because keeping things bottled up is the worst thing, trust me. You'll feel so much better after talking to someone, even if it's talking to someone on VirtualTeen.

Stay strong :)