Do i have a problem?

[anthonyjr2]

ok...so every once in a while, mostly when i am sad, i start thinking only 1 weird thing. my thoughts keep saying that i want to die. i dont know why i would want to...maybe because some part of me wants to go to heaven as soon as possible. but when i am thinking, another part of me wants me to live life to its fullest. its not like i want to commit suicide, but if it was a freak accident and i was dying in the hospital i would probably be ok about it. am i crazy? (also im not depressed or anything either)

[byee]

No, you're not 'crazy'. But, you are unhappy. You're probably feeling badly and see death (or perhaps more accurately, passively being dead) as a release from the pain you're in.

You're right that there's a lot to live for, a lot of very good things yet to happen that can be very rewarding and certainly worth experiencing. If you cannot deal with those *other* dark feelings, whatever you call them, it might be a good idea to find someone to help sort them out and (hopefully) make them go away.

[ShatteredWings]

Nah, doubt it.

Most people i know have weird fantacies. I'm pretty sure it's somewhat normal.

however, if it gets bad, you get depressed, or something like that, then it's time to talk to someone

[Origami]

ok...so every once in a while, mostly when i am sad, i start thinking only 1 weird thing. my thoughts keep saying that i want to die. i dont know why i would want to...maybe because some part of me wants to go to heaven as soon as possible. but when i am thinking, another part of me wants me to live life to its fullest. its not like i want to commit suicide, but if it was a freak accident and i was dying in the hospital i would probably be ok about it. am i crazy? (also im not depressed or anything either)

I think I can speak for alot of people when I say that we all have those thoughts. Honestly I LOVE life, and would LOVE to keep living, yet I have those thoughts as well, and been caught attempting suicide. So yeah, you're not alone! :)

[AllThatIsLeft]

I dont believe in heaven or God, but thats outside the point.
I to feel like death would be comfortable.
i love life and i cant wait to live it properly.
but dying wouldnt be such a horrible thing.
Quite the opposite. i dont know what will happen to me, but i seems that i would finally find peace.

i never been suicidal but i wouldnt mind dying.

[anthonyjr2]

I dont believe in heaven or God, but thats outside the point.
I to feel like death would be comfortable.
i love life and i cant wait to live it properly.
but dying wouldnt be such a horrible thing.
Quite the opposite. i dont know what will happen to me, but i seems that i would finally find peace.

i never been suicidal but i wouldnt mind dying.

yea i feel exactly like you said. well thanks for the help everyone :D

[zoig]

There are times when I have been depressed (I can see it now but not then) when I would not think of suicide but be completely ambiverlent towards death.
The feeling of null would be a release from woes.
You really are probably stressed or depressed but have not been able to identify it yet (trust me it happens)