i fucked up big time...

[jakieboi]

its been a long time since ive been on here but i figerd where els could i turn....
its a long story so this is how its started...

my best mate jordan asked this girl out called amina...
i ask her best mate out anya....
it was all going going well for the 1st few weeks then amina dumped jordan and about 5 hours ago i was out with anya and amina just walking around and talking all was well... anya went home (she lived like 10 mins away in car) so amina stayed with me till my dad came... (after jordan asked amina out i realized how much i liked her i felt like amina was perfect for me we liked the same music same shoes same colors, we would talk on msn about how one day we would go out) and when anya left i dunno what happened i just started holding her hand and u know that kinda stuff we even hade our own song.... when i was leaving i huged her and as i pulled out the hug we just started kissing and i didnt wonna leave nether did she and i kissed her agen
it felt so right like it was ment to be, i havent stoped thinking about that kiss, because when i got home turns out anya wonted to dump me (and she did she got one of my mates to do it ova msn) and i started to talk to amina when she came online and she sed she didnt feel anythink when we kissed.... just like that everythink was gona im feeling so empty im feeling so depresed agen and i dunno what to do i just lost the girl that was perfect for me (amina) in a few words that she told me it was gone and i dunno what to
i feel dead inside, lonely, heartless, no one to love....
i need to talk to some one
any one
please i need some one
i started cutting my arms just to feel somethink
this can be called the worse day of my life

help

[byee]

I can understand your devastation here. The perfect girl, the perfect kiss, you guys even made your own song! Then?

It doesnlt make sense, she seemed to be as into it as you were. I think you need to have a talk with her, face to face, remind her what you experienced (and saw her experience) and ask her what happened.

Sometimes, when it's really intense, it's magic. But it also can be scary, too, esp. if that's new. Talk with her, not online, and avoid cutting yourself. It doesn't solve anything and creates a new set of issues!

[mrpenguin]

I kinda understand how you feel too, I kinda got those feeling when my first gf broke up with me.
And I suggest taking the advice of IAMSAM!

And as IAMSAM said don't cut yourself do something else like talk to a friend, play a game or watch tele!

[jakieboi]

OH MY GOD FUCKING HELL

now the only person i told was my best mate and now hes gone and told jordan and now ive hade to tell anya and now amina hates me i neva wonna talk to elliott agen for stabbing me in the back, jordan will neva talk to me agen just lost every one ....

what the fuck have i got left??

amina just told me neva to talk to her agen

what have i got left???
seriosly what???

[George678]

Jesus Christ son carm down.
Right ok here we go again DO NOT FOR FUCK SAKE DO NOT NEVER EVER EVER CUT YOURSELF YOU WILL ONLY HATE IT OK?
Now it has obviously been a big fuck up and it is like confusing me.
So have you got any friends?
Your best mate??????

[Seth48]

Wow yaknow Shit Like this happened to Me at my School =(

You can Talk to Me on AIM, X-Fire, Or Steam IF you would like

Ill be a good friend =)

[jakieboi]

i dunno what to do i got no more best mates, and ive just gone and asked anya out agen now we are going out and i dunno what to, i dont talk to my family anymore i would rather ignor them tbh i no its hursh but i dunno, the rest of my family are in england, i cant sleep anymore its reli starting to get to me, thanks guys for being there for me apreciate it alot :) xxx