Cry for help

[lizi]

Should I talk to my mom about my disorder? It's been on and off for 4 years and my weight fluctuates sooo much. I've done everything and recently its throwing up,fasting,working out 24/7,smoking like a chimney and drugs. I knows its unhealthy but I'm not sure if I want help for it because I dont want to gain any weight. Thats my biggest fear. I dont wanna go anywhere I have to gain weight. Help?:confused:

[byee]

Lizi, it's hard to imagine that your mom doesn't realize something is going on for you, that's quite a list of things that you struggle with!

The answer to your q, is that, yes, you should tell her in detail about your issues and struggles and make sure she gets you to a doctor.

It's not that you don't want to get fat, it's that you're afraid of giving this up, it serves a (not so healthy) purpose for you. Treatment will resolve whatever the underlying issues are for you so that these behaviors aren't so vital for your well being. It's not about weight (or thinness), it's about happiness. There are other ways to feel happy without starving yourself or using drugs.

Go tell her, all you'll feel in therapy is better.

[thiscityisdead]

yeahh its a good idea to tell your mum because shes prolly the best one there for you, it may not seem like it sometimes but im sure she loves you very much. make sure to see a doctor and hope you feel better, hope this helps =]]

[lizi]

i chickened out.and i fasted instead.i cant bring myself to do it.idk i want to get better but i dont want anyone making me gain weight.thats what IM in control of and im not handing it over to some doctor.idk what to do now.maybe ill go when i get to my goal weight.or ill just stop then...

[byee]

Being in control means a lot of things, you know. Weight is just one of them, you have choices, though, on the other things that you could be in control of.

Being in therapy isn't about gaining weight, it's about learning about your choices (already made and options still available), and exploring the advantages and disadvantages of them. It's not about food or weight, therapy isn't a control struggle to get you to do something you don't want to do.

[ShatteredWings]

Dude, you have to tell your mom. She should've noticed something's wrong, but sometimes parents don't want to accept that their child has a problem
i love losing weight.i dont want to stop.everytime i reach a goal i set a lower one.sometimes i wonder whats wrong with me.but most of the time im depressed until i dont eat.
You just said yourself that you'll never reach your goal weight.
you won't be able to stop, and you know it

You said you dont want to gain weight because you want to be in control. You need something else to control then.
Something has to change, and you have to learn how to cope with the issues you're having.
With REAL help.
You won't be able to really recover without someone there to help. To help you remember what's really important, and to help you control other things.

[Axellance]

what exactly is your next goal weight, will it kill you trying to reach an unrealistic goal. i guess i shouldn't talk a year ago i would be thrilled with where i am now but it really has to stop somewhere. It would be better if it doesn't stop with a trip to the hospital, or worse....

[lizi]

well im down to 125 and im 5'4" so its a "normal" weight but i dropped 5 pounds in 5 days
im so excited but idk
ive only eaten 100 cals worth of cheerios today
idk what to do
i love it
but i feel shaky so much anymore
ill prolly eat fruit and go exercise for 2-3 hours
im a compulsive exerciser except ive quit binging as much before
but i stopped using pills and stuff
so i mean thats better right?

[BeautifulSilence]

It is better but, honestly, Lizi, it still isn't enough.

You NEED to tell someone that you need help. You don't have to say what about, until you're with a proffessional, when it's completely confidential.

Quitting the pills doesn't cancel out the fact that you're still excited about the weight loss. This is a psychological problem and it needs to be sorted. Do you honestly want to get into that routine of only being happy when you're losing weight and eventually dying because you refuse to stop losing the weight?

This is so bad for your health. Please, do something.

[ShatteredWings]

well im down to 125 and im 5'4" so its a "normal" weight but i dropped 5 pounds in 5 days
im so excited but idk
ive only eaten 100 cals worth of cheerios today
idk what to do
i love it
but i feel shaky so much anymore
ill prolly eat fruit and go exercise for 2-3 hours
im a compulsive exerciser except ive quit binging as much before
but i stopped using pills and stuff
so i mean thats better right?

No, not really.
it's still the same problem
You're obsessed with loosing weight
You're light for your height as it is

That shaky feeling is because you're basically eating yourself, and that your body doesn't want to exert any more energy then unnecessary because of the lack of nutrition. I get like that whenever i can't eat [there are days...]. Every time.

Compulsive exersizing, whilst it sounds better, is just as harmful, if not more so.

Please, tell your parents, or school, or friend, or someone. It's clear you want to get help