nachtspiegel
December 30th, 2008, 07:29 AM
I wake up most every day hoping to be wiped out in some freak accident. I don't have the drive to commit suicide, quite honestly. Jumping off of a bridge seems so easy, but I couldn't do it so theatrically. I do have people to think about. I'm not completely motivated to die, I'm just not all that motivated to keep living, either. I'm not going to go on about how I am just an "emotionless shell" or anything of the sort. The prospect of better days is so nice but I'd rather take the rain check, never follow through, and put an end to myself before I have the chance to find out.