Scared

[Eclipse]

Well, I’ve been scared a lot this week, like right now when I’m at the computer I always look back to see if anything’s there. Yesterday, I swore I seen a little mouse on the stove. I screamed and ran to my parent’s room, my dad looked for it, but couldn’t find it. Right now I just don’t know what to do I can barely sleep and I want to cut so badly for no stupid reason. I should be happy, it's still Christmas break and I shouldn’t be stressed. (Sorry that this might not make sense but you know.)

[Burnthecity]

Hmm, you seem your very very stressed, do you know why? i know what ya mean being scared, i get it all the time, every sound makes me scared, and im 15 so doesnt really make sence, mabye your just need to relax, take your mind off everything, pick of a good book, listen to some soft music, call up a friend mabye and go hang out :)

if its really bad and you cant stand it, go to your doctor tell him whats going on

you said you want to cut? did you use to cut? mabye this is a side affect of not cutting, if so, i dont recomend you start cutting agian, it might releave the pain/stress but then your back at square one

well i hope i helpped a little bit at least, leme know if theres anything else i can do :)

feel better

[Atonement]

Sounds a little paranoid. But who am I to judge, when I am home alone, I hear my dog and I go and sit at the computer with a knife because I feel threatened by someone that could walk into my home.

Though, if you are getting scared that easily, and some what paranoid. Just try to relax. Hang with friends, watch a movie with your family, and interact with others.

As for the cutting, darling, you need to talk to someone about it. If you already have help, take advantage of it and talk about it more because you need to if you still get strong urges. If you don't have help, you need it.

[Cindex]

Have you been on any drugs? I mean ever. I jacked up on some Nutmeg not too long ago and now every once in a while I'll go completely paranoid for about an hour. Drugs have long-lasting effects that most people don't notice.

In any case don't cut. Ever again, if you have. Talk to someone. A doctor, tell your parents that you've been oddly paranoid.

Is there anything specific that you think is coming?

[Eclipse]

No, I haven't tooken drugs, I don't have therapy. Maybe I am being paranoid. About the cutting, I have self-harmed in the past, been cut-free almost a month. But today I found another way. I was wearing a headband that has those little spikes and I pressed it into my scalp until it got numb. I loved it.

[byee]

Well, all was OK until that last post.

I think most people would freak a bit if they saw a mouse on the stove, I don't think getting frightened or anxious (or maybe the better term is startled) is unusual. When something totally unexpected and creepy happens, anxiety results. A mouse on the stove counts as that.

Needing to cut as a response to it, however, is not a typical reaction. Somewhere along the way, you've learned that the response to distress (of any kind) is to cut yourself. An old habit, maybe, but one that really needs to stop. It doesn't really address the anxiety or distress, and it hurts.

You said you've never been in therapy, but that's really a solution here. There, you can better understand this habit you've developed, and learn better ways of addressing those feelings when they arise. Which they will, as you move thru adolescence.

Tell your folks or the guidance counsellor what's been going on for you and that you need someone to talk to and make the therapy happen. Until then, avoid the urge to cut or otherwise hurt yourself.