Bad Thoughs

[LiveStrong]

Have you though about suicide/ Killing someone/ rape, robberey, or anyting like that? :?

[TheWizard]

Yeah I tried to kill myself before. You have to fight the feelings and hang in there one day at a time.

[LiveStrong]

Thats good that you didn't do that Black, and Wizard, Im glad you didnt also, thats cool, I tied to kill myself once, I had a knife and had it againts my skin, Ready and everything.

[*-tick tock-*]

yeah..i thought of killing myself and some people.... well the people i dont know but they are fucking around with my family..and thats not good.
i didnt act on killing myself... but yeah i just cut myself but i stopped for about a week :)

[LiveStrong]

Thats not good, sometimes family makes you mad, but you know you love them, and you have to protect them. :)

[*-tick tock-*]

yup, id do alot for my family and of course they are gonna piss u off...but yeah..overall id die for them :)

is that ur pic on ur signiture?

[Whisper]

I attempted suicide only a few weeks ago, I used to burn and I cut all the time......Shit happens nobody cares, why should they I don't.

[LiveStrong]

Same here. Sometimes they piss you off not purposley you know? Like if u wanted to do something a little dangerious and dont want u to, they care. It might piss u off a little but yeah.
Life sucks

[Whisper]

Same here. Sometimes they piss you off not purposley you know? Like if u wanted to do something a little dangerious and dont want u to, they care. It might piss u off a little but yeah.
Life sucks

I've had a lil more happen to me then simple stuff like that^

[LiveStrong]

Same here

[RunAwayMolly]

I've tried to kill myself yes. I'm also really worried that one day im going to snap and I'll kill my dad or my brother because I always have elaborate thoughts of killing them. I wish i didn't.

[LiveStrong]

Wow, how old are you RunAway?

[RunAwayMolly]

18

[LiveStrong]

You're still young molly, you still need to expriance alot more stuff, you have lots to live for, and myself, I am only 14.

[suicidescholar]

I have to tell you guys that noone else does, i have been getting so depressed i have been getting violent with my family. A couple weeks ago my dad was being mean and i snapped and i threw a thick book at his head with all my strengt, and he had a seizure! i don't know what i am going to do, i think i am a serious mental case, being here has calmed me down a lot and i can ujnwind and not hurt anyone.

[serial-thrilla]

I have to tell you guys that noone else does, i have been getting so depressed i have been getting violent with my family. A couple weeks ago my dad was being mean and i snapped and i threw a thick book at his head with all my strengt, and he had a seizure! i don't know what i am going to do, i think i am a serious mental case, being here has calmed me down a lot and i can ujnwind and not hurt anyone. damn, is your dad ok?

[LiveStrong]

I feel so lonely rite now, its not even funny, I am in love with a girl and she is to far rite now, and she is asleep, god damn I hate these feelings, I just wanna cry, but I just hold it in. :cry:

[suicidescholar]

My dad is fine, he had a concussion, and he forgave me me so that is a good thing :D

[///James///]

i though of killing myself, and many other people who i hate!

i want to kill myself for the reason im sick of my shit life where nothing goes right

[Julio caesar shavez the 4]

Have you though about suicide/ Killing someone/ rape, robberey, or anyting like that? :? i dont stop thinking about killing ppl at my skool i hate them all every singel one of them totaly turned to dust by an A_BOMB

[dajakesta10]

I tried killing myself before, by jumping in front of a train. But the conductor person caught me. I also screamed in a year 8's face (I'm year 9) and beat the shit out of him. I felt a lot better after, though.

[XxMurderedKissesxX]

Whats making u so angry and depressed??

[NobodysCupOf Tea]

I've thought of it, tried it in tame ways... but i know that i never would.

never rape or robbery. It's always harm to myself.

[kuuliluuk]

Following might be disturbing, but it is my experience and my thoughts. So you are warned!
So... I have tried to kill myself. I was almost successful with that. I hanged myself. But there was still some very little tiny desire to live and I didn't make knot to the doorknob too tight. Giving me a chance. I was lucky to live. Only before I saw and felt death very close. Death wasn't frightening. Very emotionless. Black fog rose from the ground and lifted me into weightlessness. I was floating there, inside the thickening fog. Light was fading and voices from the street got more and more distant I started to fall into complete darkness via vertical tunnel. And then there was nothing.
First I felt my existence again. I didn't know where I was nor why. I knew I existed. Then suddenly I started to hear sounds from the street like someone has turned volume on. Then I started to feel my body and limbs that were crisscrossed in an uncomfortable position. Only then I remembered what has happened. I just had escaped dark void.
I felt guilt that I had done that. What my parents would have felt finding me hanging there on the door!!! And my little brother? Especially him.
When I feel bad again, I think of him, that he needs me. At least for him I am still useful, even littlebit hero.
So, out of that experience I can suggest you, if you have a suicidal friend just tell him/her how much you like and need him/her. Don't try to convince in uselessness of suicide. Just tell how bad you would feel if he or she kills himself.
Somebody asked WHY? You never know that. Reasons can be different. There is no universal reason. And it isn't important in the first aid.
About myself I can tell WHY i wanted to kill myself. I had always considered myself str8 guy. All my family and friends hated gays and so did I. I knew that I liked to peek boys but I thought it will go away in time. With puberty. I was on denial about my true sexuality plus that anti gay environment I grew up. One day I fell in love. With a boy from our neighbourhood. I was still on denial. Other day I went to party. All my friends had girls there and I was alone. Then I realized that it never will go away and that I love a boy not a girl. And that I am gay. That very hated gay I have hated myself. I was very lone with my shocking discovery. I sat in the cellar for a quite long time and was crying hitting my head against the wall. Crying eased me little bit so i was able to return upstairs and pretend like nothing had happened. I started to have depressions that only worsened each time. I felt no purpose, nobody really cared. I couldn't tell anyone. I didn't want to be gay. I hated myself so much! So it happened.
Touch of death added another dimension to life. You either are here, feel, see, hear, enjoy or there is nothing. There are still people who care about you even if you hate yourself so much you couldn't see these people who love you despite all your faults. Being gay isn't a fault of course but you got the point. Hating yourself makes you blind.
If there wasn't that tiny desire to live I wasn't here to tell my story. Don't kill your desire to live! Life will help you to survive, get stronger, better. Death isn't. Death is just a black void, nothingness.
I hope it helps. ;)

[XxMurderedKissesxX]

Ive tried to kill myself,multiple times.

[FearsomeEnder]

mmmm killing people slipping a knife in thier back and twisting so that you hear a little crunch in thier spine and... ohh srry i fantisise about killing id never do it though

[Stefani]

I havan't tried to kill myself but i have wondered what it would be like if i did die. or if someone i knew i knew died. Just wondering has anyone wlse imagined this??

[Skyhawk]

Yeah, I usually think like that, Stefani.

[DoctorNewbie]

I think like that, Stefani. Only on a philosophical level. Emotions and such.

[superstar2067]

I often think about killing myself, one of my most frequent thoughts is going to school, climbing on top of the gym, pulling a fire alarm so everyone is gathered on the oval (outside the gym) then jumping face first into the concrete in-front of everybody

[ShadowGirl]

I've thought of killing myself many times but I never was brave enough to do it. I kept thinking about how my best friend would feel when she heard I killed myself and that stopped me from doing it.

[MonsterBear]

i've thought of killing my older sister once but i quickly regret it.
i poisoned her drink with nicotine sulfur and acetone . We were arguing about something really stupid and i just wanted her to shut up. when she was doing homework the next night she asked me to get her some orange juice so i did. I wanted her to quickly die already. i waited and watch but she never took a sip. Suddenly she said she wanted to give me something for my birthday because she never gives me anything and im always baking her sweets and buying her clothes for her birthday. she handed me a teddy bear from her backpack. I felt like puking. i never thought she would bring that up. My birthday was a few weeks ago from that day. I was admiring the teddy bear until i noticed she was about to drink her orange juice. I knocked it out of her hand just in time. i still want to kill her but something tells me not too.
i love her but i hate her.

[Youtubeuser101]

nope, i havent

[XxMurderedKissesxX]

I always have thoughts about killing myself,the only person I ever have thoughts about killing,is my father. : /