Bad Fleeting Thoughts

[Tatters]

You know those bad thoughts that you might think and then be like ˝Ugh, why did I think that˝ and then you forget about it a second later. Well that was the way it used to be until my life went through a bit of a change, I used to live in the US then moved to another country and here I have no friends, and this is the first time in my life me and my parents are not living in the same house (but we do live in the same city, but not the same house, my first time on my own), so I stay inside on my computer all day mostly by my self, and now when I have one of those thoughts that is suppose to be fleeting, I start to over analyze and start thinking ˝why did I think that?˝, have become some sick freak or something, I try not to think about them but I can`t help it, it`s like I have no control over it, and because I think about it so much I start to think up new ones, I beat my self up about it, sometimes it`s the first thing I think about when I wake up, kind of like ˝I can`t believe you had those thoughts˝ and then try to go on with the rest of the day. Now I have no urges or feeling with these thoughts, there is one feeling I get when I get these thought and that is panic, I had a panic attack once because I was starting to doubt my humanity, but other than that feeling, nothing else, I don`t have an urge to do harm to people just thoughts. It`s like there is someone else in my head with me that is not me, like what a religious person would refer to as a ˝demon˝, just making me think bad stuff. This is very disrupting to my every day life, I just want to go back to the way I used to be, things used to be so much simpler. Thank you for listening, and I appreciate any help I can get.

PS. I am not trying to self diagnose but I think that it`s safe to say that these changes in my life are the cause, I know the cause, but I don`t know how to stop it, maybe I just have to get out more and make some friends.

[byee]

I think that last paragraph of yours sums up what's going on and what you might need to do inorder to feel better: Turn the PC off, getout there, and make some friends. What you're currently experiencing is probably a result of all those changes, without any support system in place to help you make the transition.

Make some friends, make your new home yours, and you'll likely feel better and not question yourself so much.

[Tatters]

Where would this forum be without you Sam lol, I think your the most helpful and level headed person in this forum, thanks for your help.

[byee]

Where would this forum be without you Sam lol, I think your the most helpful and level headed person in this forum, thanks for your help.

Well thank you, Tatters! I apppreciate the acknowledgement, and I'm glad I helped.