Stopped with weed.... need some help...

[citysmoker420]

well im 15... im new to these forums so plz excuse any thing i post incorrectly... i read the rules... but i wasnt sober.... so plz... just tell me....



anyway... im 15... and becasue of a DT coming up... i had to stop smoking weed. now this is a pretty big prob. for me... im at home... i planned a big party... blazign with my friends and such.... now i cant smoke! ive been getting pretty deprressed... ive been diagnosed clincally depressed since i was 12... i had a prior cutting problem... w.e...

now i needed a fix... like i was fucking fiending for weed... i had a sack and just kept smelling the fresh green... urgh... i used all my willpower not to smoke it....

i really have stared increasing my cig smoking.... which i really never intended to.... i snorted a line of methphadite (whatever is in concerta and ritalin) yesterday and today.... and i liked it....

i have been on/done every stimulant.... but this was pretty good

i also drank today... just a cupple beers but eneoguh to get me drunk.... anyhow... im afraid im gunna do something bad... im def gunna continue to drink over break... but what do i do when im alone.... i mean... like i noramlyl smoke weed... put on music... meditate and draw.... but now... idk...

i feel an emptiness inside me.... how do i plug this hole?

[just-me]

the weed wasnt controlling you. you can still listen to music and meditate an draw without it.
i know its hard but try and not increase your smoking amount, because after you increase the number of fags you smoke its harder to reduce them.
and if you want to drink i cant stop you, but dont try and substitue weed for alcohol, and dont become dependent on it.
good luck.

[Callwaiting]

First off, welcome to the VT forums!

I'm guessing you've smoked marijuana for a long time, which is why you're having a hard time cutting it out?
I'm sorry to break it to you, but if your drug test is within two weeks of now you're totally screwed. Not only will your test show up positive for Cannibis use(if you're a regular user), it will also give a positive reading for Amphetamines because of the ritalin you snorted(Ritalin contains methylphenidate).
However if this test is more than a month away you should show up fine(as long as its not a hair test) which would give you the perfect oppertunity to give up drugs for good. Not only are they physically damaging but they can cause long-term psychological effects, yet another reason to quit.
A good first step would be to arrange a session with a counseller or therapist. You mentioned you were diagnosed with depression so I assume you already have one? Seeing as you've been clinically depressed for three years it might be time to ask if they think medication would compliment your therapy, which in turn would eliminate your need for other more harmful drugs.

All the best to you, hope you have a good time on the forums

[byee]

it's hard to tell sometimes when something goes from 'recreational' to medicinal, but in your case, you should seriously look at the possibility that your drug use is intended not so much as a way of having 'fun', but of changing the way you feel inside, to cope with other feelings or issues. By your own admission, you're 'depressed', and as a result maybe the pot and speed help change that feeling, it certainly is one worth trying to change! However, the 'change' you're using , the drugs , have now become a problem themselves.

Solution? Find a better way of changing that feeling inside with a professional, a therapist who can help you understand whatever is causing the depression, and give you the tools you need to manage and deal with it better, without drugs.

Tell someone you need a therapist, weekly, maybe more, and get involved.