I'm still cutting.

[Rutherford The Brave]

I think this is the worse that I've been in ages. Recently I've had some issues concerning work and it's really gotten to me, I've been cutting none stop. They aren't like little grazes too they are like full blown, gushing blood gashes that are so bad I have to rap my wrist in linens. What's worse is I haven't told Noor, because I'm afraid that it will make our relationship worse. It's bad enough as it is, we both work almost everyday. I hardly talk to her, and when I do it's usually a contest to see who can scream lauder. Then when just go to bed without saying a word to each other. Sadly, I do not think I can take much more of this. I understand that I have the responsability of taking care of my daughter, but it's to much to ask for out of a 16 year old kid. So that's basically why I haven't stopped cutting.

[byee]

Greg, take a deep breath here, and maybe splash some cold water on your face. You have a family that needs you, you cannot afford to unravel.

Get some help, first maybe some medical attention for your cuts, then some therapy. No excuses, just pick up the phone, call ''Community Mental Health Center" and get yourself an appointment.

Go in and kiss your baby, hold her in your arms, and realize she needs you to be OK. You're her daddy. Daddy's do unimaginable things for their daughters, like quit cutting.

Go.

[nachtspiegel]

I'm advising that you get mental help. You say that you don't have time - and I imagine that raising a child at 16 requires a lot of you time. I do not have any kids of my own but I helped to raise my older sister's daughter from the time I was 10 until I turned 15 and I've been taking care of my other sister's daughter day in and out for the past year and half since she was born. So, while I do not have any children of my own, I can imagine - that may be all I'll ever be able to do.
Back to the previous point - your first reaction is probably that you do not have time. What happens when the cutting and untreated mental disorder (I remember reading that you are diagnosed with two mental disorders) drives you to a mental breakdown and instead of going to therapy every week or every other week, you're committed for a month or two? That's defenitely time-consuming. You owe it to your daughter, to Noor, and, equally important, to yourself to seek the help you need. Life is hard enough without facing an untreated mental disorder.

[ShatteredGlass]

Get help, go to therapy. Then decide what steps to take from there. Hold that little bundle of joy in your arms-your daughter-you've got to realize it's not about you any more. That little girl needs you, your lover needs you. And that little girl NEEDS a father, you cannot risk, leaving this life prematuraly. You need to get help. Not because you're weak, but because NO ONE can stand on their own