Very Unhappy In Life..

[Completely Lost]

I'm just generally an unhappy person, I guess..

A few years back, I was diagnosed with OCD and have withdrawed
From seeking attention due to my parents not really letting me, lol..

They know I have OCD, but they don't feel that it is
effecting me that much, and are in denial
They are great parents, just a bit naive..

So.. lately in school (I am new and virtually have NO FRIENDS)
All I do is go from class to class being quiet and VERY DEPRESSED
I wake up in the morning and I take a shower, and force myself to leave
for school, and lately I've been having severe
(In my opinion anyways) anxiety attacks, and this
Has caused even more stress on me, I cannot talk to my
Parents because they just get mad at me and yell
and tell me to suck it up.. say things will get better
but they havn't.. for four months and I
Seriously cannot take this FUCKING SCHOOL anymore because
It is strict and the teachers really suck

I've moved eight times..
OCD does not help
I cannot talk to anyone because my parents don't listen and my
Brother and Sister don't live with me anymore
(First time I've moved without them.. it's tough)

Can someone offer advice
My OCD is so fucking retarted right now when I talk about
it, if you have noticed every single line
Has either 2,4,8,12,14 words


Around the corner is.. I think you know..
I don't want to be here at all.. ..

[byee]

You're more than your OCD. Yes, it's a part of who you are, but it does not define you. There's much more to who you are as a person than a bunch of symptoms and a diagnosis. You have some influence over that. Force yourself to recognize those other parts of yourself, and join in, maybe with organized groups and such at school.

Then, i'll assume that if you've been diagnosed with OCD you have a doc or two working with you, yes? If not, then you might want to talk with your folks and/or the guidance counsellor at school to help in getting them. Therapy and meds really work pretty close to 'miracles' with OCD I'm told, so I think it's important you get you some of that, it sounds like you're due.

The other issues with your family can be addressed in context of therapy, where you'll have an ally with your therapist to help you express and direct your concerns/feelings to your parents about your issues and stuff. Parental units are funny things, they often have difficulty accepting serious problems in their kids, it's an ego thing, it's about love and being good parents and how they see themselves and all. But, part of all that, is the basic underlying premise that they really do care, and if we can just find a way to effectively tell them what's really going on, that it's serious, that they'll do what needs to be done. Sometimes this takes a while. And some patience.

Work with your docs to get them to that point, and if you're not in therapy, work with the guidance counsellor to help get that.

keep us posted.