never ending tears

[lovelesslady]

I found the love of my life on August 2nd 2005. It took me about 2 weeks to realize that i loved him with everything i have, more than life it's self. All wanted was for me to open with him, not to lie. I told one lie, it's over now. He tells me i'm like his other girlfriend shannon, i'm not though, I wish i he would understand so badly. it's killing, i can't go anywhere now, i'm a complete wreck, i can't stop crying, i can't stop regretting all this i thinking that maybe death is the solution to my problem. i've never met anyone like him, he's so perfect. i have only thought about killing myself once before, and i don't have the guts to do it. Now it does seem like the only solution, i want the problem solved so bad, he'll talk to me, but barely, he doesn't know what will become of these 3 absolutely amazing months i've shared with him. He won't comfort me at all, last night was only vunerable time for him, and i'm a torn apart. Why does this have to happen to me, why i did i meet him, why did i lie, i regret these months almost now, for this pain, i can't take. These tears are starting to sting my face. just the other day, we were joking around, and laughing, having a good time. Now where are we!? Now what happens, do i kill myself, and leave this world behind, or do i go day by day and try to mend everything thats fallen apart. How do i go on, i know the one that will read this, will come down here, and try to save me, but i don't if thats enough. My life was perfect yesterday, until 1 in the morning, where it shattered, it shattered to pieces that cut my hands to pick up, for everytime i'm reminded of him, i can't breath, i can't see the sobs and tears i can't cut back, i need this to end, i want to be saved, i wanna be loved again, i don't want to sit here knowing that i loved someone and ruined it. He kill himself, he threatened to, i can't get this pain to go away. Twice in my life i haven't been able to describe my feelings. My feelings for him, the pure love i shared with him and now, this horrible pain, thats eating apart, death is probably the easiest way to rid me of this feeling.

WHAT DO I DO?!?!

[Φρανκομβριτ]

Okay, well to killy ourself over someone is totally not cool. I understand you were in love with this person, but I mean still. My mum just broke up with the person she lvoed because theyre an alcoholic and abusive. SHes been crying for 5 weeks, but she's not going to kill herself. There's not point, because althought it may not seem it, you shall find another special person. You will love again. GOod luck. If you need to talk, I'm here

[[email protected]//]

yeah dont kill urself..its not worth it..take life to the fullest

[marine_sniperman35]

I know how you feel. I went up to Breckenridge Colorado to snowboard. I thought it would be just a week of snoboaring. WRONG!! I totaly met this girl that i almost immeitaly fell in love with. She was my friends friend. I really liked her and i could tell she liked me to because 1) she would always want to be next to me on the ski lift 2) when we went tubing...she would always want to be behind me cuz we had to hold onto eachothers tubes if we were doing double. guess she kinda trusted me there. But sadly here are the problems: 1) she has a b/f :( 2) she lives in florida.
When i came home i just wanted to break down and cry. I felt so bad and so upset because the possibilities of seeing her again was a one and a hundred chance. I remember when i first knew she really liked me...we were going up Peak 9 and she started looking @ me. so i looked back and well we had one of those akward moments....oh and to add to the akwardness....get this....the song WITH ARMS WIDE OPEN by Creed starts over the loudspeakers right then!
I was so so sad when we left. I just hope i see her again. And now i have almost constantly thought about her. It was March 10, 2006 that we met. Somewhere around there. And hopefully we can see eachother again.