I am relieved.

[nachtspiegel]

I had my first one-on-one session with my therapist today. She is better than I thought. She's leaving my treatment plan completely up to me. I have decided against family therapy (my most recent therapist tried to force it) and once I explained my reasons, she understood and is supportive. We have decided that I will go every other Tuesday, until we start getting into the "trauma work" (until we get deeper into the years of the abuse and the other traumatic things that I've been through,) and at that point, I will be going every week. I see my psychiatrist (medicine doctor) on Friday morning. We had an in-depth discussion as to why Lithium previously worked for me (my most recent psych doctor took me off of Lithium and put me on Depakote) and it was bad business. She has agreed to talk to the doctor about how Lithium worked for me in exchange with my agreeing to try something new if the doctor feels it's best. I can't believe that I finally found a therapist that listens. This is my fifth therapist. I see her again on the sixteenth of this month, and afterward, I probably will not see her again until sometime after the new year. I really look forward to working with her and the session I had this morning has really made my day.

:)

[theOperaGhost]

That's awesome! I'm glad you finally found someone who works for you and doesn't force you to talk or whatever. I hope everything works out for you and gets better.

[Hyper]

told ya not to give up and go.

And you actually got a good one yay xD

Good luck to you man, hope things get better and better and hope you stay strong when things arent as good as they should be

[nachtspiegel]

:)

The day after tomorrow can not come soon enough. I had a bad mood swing last night and started running out in front of cars and throwing myself down the stairs. Then I contemplated stabbing myself or hopping out of the window until I passed out.
When I get like that, I feel invincible, that nothing can hurt me.


:stretcher:

Edit: this is post number eleven hundred, moving up in the world.

[amaezing19]

I know I went to visit one and it was so scary.

[nachtspiegel]

I didn't get to see the medicine doctor. She called Thursday afternoon and said that she wouldn't be in on Friday morning, thus, my appointment was cancelled.
I am pissed.

[Hyper]

I didn't get to see the medicine doctor. She called Thursday afternoon and said that she wouldn't be in on Friday morning, thus, my appointment was cancelled.
I am pissed.

Hang on there.. Just a little patience :/ though thats of little comfort.. Meh e :hug: for you

[Removed]

Patience don't worry :D