RenaShugo
November 30th, 2008, 09:44 PM
2 Nights ago, i had a Friend over...
Me and her have bin friends since we were 4
And im was goin out with another Girl..
im 15 now, just so youse no..
Anyway, she was over, and we were watching Movies, playing xbox, lol, yuo know, the shit friends do...And then it happened
We got the call, that my mate Over-Dosed, and he was in the ICU (intensive care unit), My friend who was over, was his Ex...
She was Balling her eyes out...Saying it was all her fault...
I gave here a "everything is alright" kiss on the cheek..
She looked into my eyes and grabbed me and hugged me..
Harder than she had ever done..
Then she stopped, looked into my eyes, and kissed me on the lips..
She pushed me onto my bed, and...
(will not say what happened)
All through this ordeal, she told me she loved me...
In the morning i woke up with her in my arms..
And my neck was really sore.
I woke her up, she looked at me, and Kissed me again.
Then after an hour or so, she started crying again.
I asked her what was wrong, and she said-
"i love him so much (refering to my mate who overdosed), and Dave, i cant be with you, your my best friend, i couldnt ever see you that way.."
Which i was totally confused about, i was sure she was fine with it, because of the night before. I love her more than anything...Which is a bad thing, because i was in a relationship with a girl from school.
She Really sad for the rest of the day...
I took her home around 6pm.
When i got home, i was talkign to her on msn..
and My Girlfriend came online, And i had plans to end it with her..Because of the following
1.I loved her, But i didnt want to ruin our friendship
2.I Felt liek a total Ass for cheating on her.
3.I Really loved the other girl...
I told My gf everything that happened...and she signed out.
Then i told The girl (my really good friend), That i told my gf, and that we broke up.
She called me a fucking idiot, and said if it gets back to Joel (her ex), Shed never speak to me again..
I was really confused...And then she said The reason she Slept with me the night before, was because she was lonely, not because she loved me...
Now im sitting here, not wanting to go to school, And my year 10 formal is coming up, Which is absolutely horrible, because i am sitting next to my ex...
And the girl i love doesnt want anything to do with me...
WHAT DO I DO...
I have nothin to live for..
Please say something..
Me and her have bin friends since we were 4
And im was goin out with another Girl..
im 15 now, just so youse no..
Anyway, she was over, and we were watching Movies, playing xbox, lol, yuo know, the shit friends do...And then it happened
We got the call, that my mate Over-Dosed, and he was in the ICU (intensive care unit), My friend who was over, was his Ex...
She was Balling her eyes out...Saying it was all her fault...
I gave here a "everything is alright" kiss on the cheek..
She looked into my eyes and grabbed me and hugged me..
Harder than she had ever done..
Then she stopped, looked into my eyes, and kissed me on the lips..
She pushed me onto my bed, and...
(will not say what happened)
All through this ordeal, she told me she loved me...
In the morning i woke up with her in my arms..
And my neck was really sore.
I woke her up, she looked at me, and Kissed me again.
Then after an hour or so, she started crying again.
I asked her what was wrong, and she said-
"i love him so much (refering to my mate who overdosed), and Dave, i cant be with you, your my best friend, i couldnt ever see you that way.."
Which i was totally confused about, i was sure she was fine with it, because of the night before. I love her more than anything...Which is a bad thing, because i was in a relationship with a girl from school.
She Really sad for the rest of the day...
I took her home around 6pm.
When i got home, i was talkign to her on msn..
and My Girlfriend came online, And i had plans to end it with her..Because of the following
1.I loved her, But i didnt want to ruin our friendship
2.I Felt liek a total Ass for cheating on her.
3.I Really loved the other girl...
I told My gf everything that happened...and she signed out.
Then i told The girl (my really good friend), That i told my gf, and that we broke up.
She called me a fucking idiot, and said if it gets back to Joel (her ex), Shed never speak to me again..
I was really confused...And then she said The reason she Slept with me the night before, was because she was lonely, not because she loved me...
Now im sitting here, not wanting to go to school, And my year 10 formal is coming up, Which is absolutely horrible, because i am sitting next to my ex...
And the girl i love doesnt want anything to do with me...
WHAT DO I DO...
I have nothin to live for..
Please say something..