CalliCan't
November 29th, 2008, 09:02 PM
I've been cutting on and off for almost two years now.
My parents know my sister was a cutter (she got the idea from me), but they don't know I am. I tricked them into sending me to therapy saying I was having "panic attacks."
Which, I was, but I really wanted help with my cutting. Now, I can't decide if I really want to give it up or not. Everything always feels like it's falling apart and cutting is my only constant.
But with the research I've been doing lately I feel like I'm cheating others who have serious reasons for what they do with my own self-mutilation.
I don't know, I guess I just wanted to talk to people who know what I'm going through.
My parents know my sister was a cutter (she got the idea from me), but they don't know I am. I tricked them into sending me to therapy saying I was having "panic attacks."
Which, I was, but I really wanted help with my cutting. Now, I can't decide if I really want to give it up or not. Everything always feels like it's falling apart and cutting is my only constant.
But with the research I've been doing lately I feel like I'm cheating others who have serious reasons for what they do with my own self-mutilation.
I don't know, I guess I just wanted to talk to people who know what I'm going through.