jjmcray
November 28th, 2008, 10:58 AM
So here's the story.
I go to this high school where you take all dual credit classes. It's a high school located on a college campus. I still have some regular high school classes though. Anyway, I used to be a pretty good student, until about 9th grade. I don't know what happened. All the sudden I just stopped doing my homework and stuff. Since then I have lacked any motivation to do any homework at all, unless it's a big project or something, but I'll still wait until the night before it's due to do it. I guess it's not that I hate it... because I know I'm perfectly capable of doing it, but it's just that I would rather be doing something else, like playing guitar, going outside, talking on the phone with my girlfriend, or something. But when I finally do get around to doing it, I just slack off so much and think "I really don't want to do this." and I end up getting a bad grade on it because I didn't really try... And yes, I know that if I do my homework and actually try, I will get a good grade, but that's still not enough motivation to get me doing my homework. And I guess another problem is that I still manage to squeeze out all A's and B's on report cards, and that doesn't help at all because I just think "Well if I can manage A's and B's without doing my homework, then I don't really need to do it at all, ever."
I guess I just need to start applying myself.
Has anyone gone through this before and gotten over it? Any advice? Or am I just a typical lazy teenage boy?
There's also a second part to this story, and it's a little more serious. As part of our "special" high school, we are also required to intern at a certain company/business.
Anyway, I went in to meet my possible mentor. We had arranged for a "meeting" to discuss things. Everything just went wrong. Apparently it was supposed to be an actual interview, and I didn't have a resume or anything. However I did dress up in a suit, which was a plus. But the point is, the guy made me realize something. I realized I truly was not ready to work out there in the field, in the real world, and it made me think that I won't ever be ready. That guy crushed me.
For example, let me show you what I can recall from the end of our conversation:
Guy: "So, do you have any questions?"
Me: "No, I think that covered everything."
Guy: "Oh so you got everything covered, huh? Do you even know what we do here?"
Me: "Well, I have a general idea now, but that's why I came here today, to find out what you actually do here."
Guy: "Oh so you didn't know anything before you came? Well maybe next time you should do a little research beforehand."
He said that along with many other things that really insulted me, like saying what I liked doing is useless and worthless in our world today, and he would have no use for me there. It made me want to go back to my normal high school where I wouldn't have to do an internship. But anyway, like I said before, it made me think that I really wasn't ready for "the real world" and that I wouldn't ever be. I guess you could say I don't WANT to be either. But at the same time I don't want to be a burger flipper at some McDonald's for the rest of my life in hopes of becoming a manager one day or something.
I go to this high school where you take all dual credit classes. It's a high school located on a college campus. I still have some regular high school classes though. Anyway, I used to be a pretty good student, until about 9th grade. I don't know what happened. All the sudden I just stopped doing my homework and stuff. Since then I have lacked any motivation to do any homework at all, unless it's a big project or something, but I'll still wait until the night before it's due to do it. I guess it's not that I hate it... because I know I'm perfectly capable of doing it, but it's just that I would rather be doing something else, like playing guitar, going outside, talking on the phone with my girlfriend, or something. But when I finally do get around to doing it, I just slack off so much and think "I really don't want to do this." and I end up getting a bad grade on it because I didn't really try... And yes, I know that if I do my homework and actually try, I will get a good grade, but that's still not enough motivation to get me doing my homework. And I guess another problem is that I still manage to squeeze out all A's and B's on report cards, and that doesn't help at all because I just think "Well if I can manage A's and B's without doing my homework, then I don't really need to do it at all, ever."
I guess I just need to start applying myself.
Has anyone gone through this before and gotten over it? Any advice? Or am I just a typical lazy teenage boy?
There's also a second part to this story, and it's a little more serious. As part of our "special" high school, we are also required to intern at a certain company/business.
Anyway, I went in to meet my possible mentor. We had arranged for a "meeting" to discuss things. Everything just went wrong. Apparently it was supposed to be an actual interview, and I didn't have a resume or anything. However I did dress up in a suit, which was a plus. But the point is, the guy made me realize something. I realized I truly was not ready to work out there in the field, in the real world, and it made me think that I won't ever be ready. That guy crushed me.
For example, let me show you what I can recall from the end of our conversation:
Guy: "So, do you have any questions?"
Me: "No, I think that covered everything."
Guy: "Oh so you got everything covered, huh? Do you even know what we do here?"
Me: "Well, I have a general idea now, but that's why I came here today, to find out what you actually do here."
Guy: "Oh so you didn't know anything before you came? Well maybe next time you should do a little research beforehand."
He said that along with many other things that really insulted me, like saying what I liked doing is useless and worthless in our world today, and he would have no use for me there. It made me want to go back to my normal high school where I wouldn't have to do an internship. But anyway, like I said before, it made me think that I really wasn't ready for "the real world" and that I wouldn't ever be. I guess you could say I don't WANT to be either. But at the same time I don't want to be a burger flipper at some McDonald's for the rest of my life in hopes of becoming a manager one day or something.