I want it all to stop

[Dark Angel 26]

I don't know how to stop myself. I cut myself this morning. Now I've got 27new cuts . I don't think I can go on living like this. I want it all to stop.

[Hyper]

Well I can relate but without how & why I or anybody can't really help you.

I hope you don't hurt yourself further and that you get back and tell us whats wrong

Sorry if you've explained things in another thread I just don't have the time to check them out right now.

[Dark Angel 26]

I'm sorry, I should have explained myself further really, but at the time I just really couldn't have done it. I've been having alot of trouble recently, and well, it's really been getting to me, and the other day, I just couldn't handle it.
I've been hurting myself for about 3 months. There are a few reasons really. I went through an unpleasant move a few years back, and in the process, I lost all my friends, and I've never really gotten over that. I've had alot of problems at home aswell, and recently that's been catching up with me a bit. My schoolwork is suffering as a result. I just feel like I'm so useless and I can't do anything right.

[Weak]

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[Hyper]

Well I can't offer solutions to your problems.. But what I do know is that pretty much all of our problems can be solved by ourselves, its just that when things go wrong and keep getting wrong we make our problems seem bigger, stronger than they really are.

I know the moving deal but I still keep in touch with my friends, I suppose it depends on personality for me its no problem not being social or not talking to people but thats just me. So I suggest you stay in touch with your friends and if You've made new ones be glad, I couldn't make a single friend when I moved :/..

Life can be difficult but in general its very very simple, we just make it seem more complicated than it really is so if you can try to relax and think objectively about your problems, if you don't have any ability to analyze persons & behaivours just try to talk to someone who is honest & would tell you how they see it, it might hurt but in general I've found those conversations to be far more productive than the nurturing ones where nobody tells you what they really think.

And cutting I really hope you seek help with that since its a cycle of hate really, hate against yourself. Cutting is a temporary relief but in the end it really makes you feel more useless & makes you hate yourself. Obviously I'd suggest counseling because you've been going at it for 3 months and if your life is overwhelming at the moment a good counselor could be the honest, neutral helper you need right now

Wooh this got long. Remember You are strong, its just a matter of bringing your strength out! Also you can always come here and just rant if you need to :)

:hug:

[Dark Angel 26]

I did try to keep in touch with my old friends after I moved away. It was like they didn't want to know me though. That's what made me start feeling so bad. I mean, they were my best friends right? So it'd hurt a bit. It was me who was doing all the running around after them, but they never put in any effort. In all the 2 years since I moved away, never once did I see them, or get a phone call from any of them. They were always too ''busy''.
After that, there was alot of trouble from them. When I was at school, and in my lessons, they'd E-mail and text me threats and hate abuse. It got so bad that I had to disable my phone number and E-mail address.
I think that that was the start of it all, for me. I've never really gotten over it. I guess that, even after nearly 4 years, I haven't moved on yet. I find it hard to make friends anyway, so I find that I'm happier by myself. Nobody can hurt me anymore that way.

[Hyper]

Well I understand how you feel honestly.

But is it like that in the school your going to right now?.. If its not just ignore the past as much as you can it can take time to move on, different amounts of it for different people..

If it is the same then I don't know I've never been able to work that one problem out. And switching schools is a huge gamble

[Dark Angel 26]

Fortunately, it's not like it so much now. But it's been taking me so long to get over all of that stuff. I hate it all so much. I feel like I'm so weak, because this all comes back to haunt me. Something will remind me of it all, and everything goes to pieces.

[Hyper]

Fortunately, it's not like it so much now. But it's been taking me so long to get over all of that stuff. I hate it all so much. I feel like I'm so weak, because this all comes back to haunt me. Something will remind me of it all, and everything goes to pieces.

Everything only goes to pieces if you let it break

And people can only emotionally hurt you if you let them hurt you. Its a harsh yet simple reality if you can grasp it and control it You'll never be hurt by people like that again

[Polly16]

Hey hun,
i know how you feel, im 16 and i moved school last year, but i moved over from ireland, so i couldnt just go visit my friends when i wanted to. it is really tough, and i find it really hard to trust people now, coz im scared that i will move again, and i dont want to lose any more friends, so i just block everyone out. Everyone at school thinks im wierd coz i dont really talk that much, but really i just need someone to talk to me and ask is everything ok, and i might open up, but no one seems to understand that im just hurt, im not wierd.
I hope things get better for you

[Polly16]

and if you want to msn me, just send me a private comment, and i will give you my msn name, its just i dont like publicly posting it.
If you want to chat, you know, im glad to coz i have probs with cutting too, and im in a similar situation
xx

[chelsay13]

Listen, the best thing you can do is go to an adult you trust and get help. i was in the same situation as you a few weeks ago, then I went to one of my Teachers (who i trust) and I asked for help. I got help, and I've been cut free for 2 monthes :)

[chelsay13]

same, some one will say something about cutting, or i'll see something about it and want to do it again. your not alone

[foof1]

Well, I can't really relate to how feel but I kind of can. If I were you I'd dig up all of my courage and go see a counsler because they can really help.