not now, not again.

[just-me]

ive been doin so well, i havnt felt really down for a week! thats like a new fuckin record! and now the doctors appointment is tomorow and bloody typical everythin decides to crumble infront of my eyes.
my best friend is slippin away from me and its seriously killin me. if i lost her i just couldnt take it!
she is my rock and the one i need to lean on.
i love her so much though that i would rather not be around here and so not hurt her, but turns out to be the worst thing to do.
shes angry at me and hurt because im not around her.
we are just not like how we used to be and its ME whos fucked it all up.
i cant take this anymore, every good thing that comes my way i screw up in some way!
it hurts so much ...

[Buggahh]

i feel the same take things one step at a time things will sort themselves out i promise it will just take time though good luck at the doctors and you can always lean on us

[DarkWingedAngel]

yea exactly what Buggahh said
if you ever need to talk my ears are open and will listen to everything you have to say

[just-me]

thank you all so much!
its just the feelin of loss so to know there are people willing to help me means allot.
thank you