I don't know what to do with myself

[Dark Angel 26]

I've been having a bad week. :(
I've cut almost every day this week.
Today was bad though. I've been crying for most of the afternoon. I feel really bad. I feel useless and I don't know what to do with myself. :cry2:
Today my teacher (one of the ones that I get on really well with) saw my cuts.
Usually, to cover myself up, I wear bracelets and sweatbands and all that sort of thing. You know, long sleeves and that. And today I wore my big hoodie. Well, today in my lesson, I got a bit hot, so I took off my hoodie. I had all my ''arm-gear'' on, so I thought I'd be okay.
But I guess all my bracelets and whatnot slipped or something, because I didn't realise that he'd seen until the end of the lesson. He pulled me aside at the end and asked me about my cuts. He was really concerned. But I couldn't tell him. I got scared. I so wanted to tell Mr Bell, but I couldn't bring myself to. I don't know what to do. :cry2:

[BlackenedSilver]

I now it get tough, but you can make it through it.
I think you should tell your teacher and ask him to help you get help, because he obviously cares about you enough to ask about your cuts.
I know its hard to tell, because you know how much you maybe be hurting that person, but if it comes to a situation of telling someone or the state of your mental health.
Your not usless, maybe try doing something creative to distract you.

I really hope this helps and hope your ok.
:hug2: If you need to talk contact me.

[Dark Angel 26]

I always try to distract myself from cutting, but the urges are just so strong. I can't help it.
I just want all this to stop.
I want to tell my teacher, but I'm scared of what he would say. He's noticed something is wrong though. He's been asking recently, stuff like ''Is everything okay at home?'' and ''Is there anything you want to talk about?''
I don't mind that, because I know that he's concerned.
But when he saw my cuts, I just found that I couldn't do it.
I wish I could find a distraction. See, I love reading, and writing stories. But I can't seem to concentrate on anything. I've tried using my coursework as a distraction, but my work is suffering.

[xhottxrockerxchicx]

dark angel, ive been in your situation before. when my counselor talked to me about my cuts, i was scared to death that she would tell my parents. but it turned out that my parents and i discussed it, like why i was doing it, and ways that i could stop. if you tell your teacher, then he and whoever else is involved, be it parents or whatnot, can get you help to stop.

[BlackenedSilver]

I agree with xhottxrockerxchicxx. You need to tell someone so you can get the help you need to stop. Then maybe you can find your something for distraction.

[Sapphire]

You do need to tell someone. I know that the first step to getting help is really hard and scary. But you don't deserve to live like this. You don't need to suffer like this alone. You deserve to be happy and telling someone is the first step towards that.

[Dark Angel 26]

I just don't know what to do. I know that I should tell someone, beacuse I think that I do need some help. But I'm so scared. I feel so bad. When I'm in college, I hide it all away, you know, put on a brave face. I feel like I have to try and hide from everyone, especially Mr Bell, because I feel like he wouldn't want to see me like...this, I suppose. Well...I guess he wouldn't want to see me like this would he!
Today, I went to see Mr Bell. I made out that I wanted to know about a deadline for some coursework, but really, I just wanted to be near him. Just be with him. Because he makes me feel...safe.