I forgot how..

[eikookmi]

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[just-me]

ranting is good, usually helps to expell some of the emotions.
but i think all you need to do is look at your past, to know youve done this before, bein down, but u DID get better and you were happy again.
yes it may take time, and the time waiting for happiness sucks ass lkie nothing else, trust me i know. but when you do become happy again, and you WILL, you will appreciate so much more, because its only when youve experienced the lows that the highs mean all that more to you.

[eikookmi]

yeah but even when i was semi happy i was depressed a lil at the same time if that makes sense. and it was because of this girl i was sort of with who helped me.

[just-me]

ye i do understand, that happiness would only last for brief periods of time.
but dont forget, there are always people willing to help, you just need to find them. and here on VT there are plenty of people with both experience and the ability to empathise that will help you any time you need it.
if you ever want to talk you can always pm me.
there is always happiness to be found, even if for just brief periods of time be that a few days or a few hours, but concentrate on those good times.

[eikookmi]

i can't find the happiness |: i have friends who try to help but it just never really works. When i was happy i was stupid and didn't know anything. I changed and learned a lot about myself and the world.

[just-me]

aah yes, losing your niavety is a hard process to come to terms with.
you realise how different everythin is to what u had thought before, a much darker side to everything.
but there IS still happiness to come, and it may take time, but u will be happy.as i said even if just for he briefest of moments. a hug, a joke, anythin.
look hard enough and you will find it. i know its difficult but u must struggle onwards for hope of a happier day, because it will come.