pushin everyone away.

[just-me]

all i seem to be doin is upsettin people or pushing them away.
i only have one girl who i can truly rely on and im hurtin her every single day, and i cant even turn to her anymore.
ill explain.
i have broke up with my ex and since then have been hanging round in my group of mates but me and this other boy, tom, hang around alot. but my best mate likes tom too. everyone feels so distant, all my other friends, and my best mate told me its cos im always hanging around tom, which im not doin on purpose, and my ex has just had ago at me for bein "all over him".
ive lost everyone. all my friends, i cant turn to my family, even the girl i thought would always be besides me.
i promised her today that i would not commit suicide cos she knows ive recently been diagnosed with depression, but its a promise im so dam close to breaking.
im breaking.
i cant take this.

[Buggahh]

PM me i push people away too :/ its not good try and talk to her about it or something xox I know its hard but youve got to try otherwise you risk loosing everyone

[just-me]

ive ritten last notes. i think im ready to go.
im so scared.

[Buggahh]

PM me. I wrote a suicide note once. I was nowhere near ready to go. Please realise how much you'll hurt everyone around you. I have spoken to you a few times, and it would devistate me to find that you had done anything to harm yourself. Think about what it would do to your family and friends