My Confession

[Atonement]

Not everything I have said is all true. Okay, I am admitting it. I have exaggerated my self harm. It has happened, just not as much nor as severe as I report. I have self harmed in the past, and I still am fighitng it. But I have lied about self harming in the past simply for attention and curiousity. I regret it, and I know there will be people that are upset by this and probably are disgusted by me. I don't know why I have this need for attention and sympathy, but I do. I will not make excuses, but all the issues I have said, all the feelings I have felt, are true, just the self harm prat is not. It was almost a virtual representation of what I wanted to do and what I wanted to feel. I feel disgusted with myself and I am disgusting to you I am sure. I hope everyone can understand.

I am making a promise right now, that I will not lie anymore to anyone here. I will be open and honest and hold myself accountable for my lies. All I can do is apologize and hope that everyone will understand and not rage on me.

The only positive that has come from this was my ability to understand others and others emotions.

Sincerely,
Addison.

[Mzor203]

Addi, I'm not going to rage on you for one, and hopefully others won't either. You're a nice guy, and you don't deserve that.

At least you admitted it. People should be able to see that you're sorry about it. And at least it's a good thing that you don't cut that much.

Stay strong Addi, and if you ever need our help, we're here. Don't let this make you hesitant to ask for something when you need a hand. :)

[Whisper]

Hun it takes a great deal of courage to do what you just did which is a true testament to you're character, I'm not disgusted, not at all.

I don't care who you are everyone and I mean EVERYONE has lied or exaggerated on here at some point or another
It's one of the temptations of an online forum
A way to try and justify externally to yourself and others how shit you feel inside and more importantly, why.

But belive me when I tell you that is an extremly slippery slope with a very high cost
You do not need to lie inorder for people to pay attention to you here
its online there is no conformity or pressure to fit in other then that which you yourself create

It took allot to do that Addison
I don't know many who would come forward like this
so no worries
and thank you for doing this

[george]

Addi you know that I wouldn't be mad at you for something like this, nor do I feel that you're disgusting to me. It's good that you confessed to it and I hope no one rages on you for it.

Its good that you don't actually cut as much as you said. We all know that you truly are sorry for what you did. You know we are always here for you and that I'm always here for you. If you ever want to talk, you know where to find me.

[Zephyr]

Addi, hun, love...

Regardless you're still having problems.
Self harm is self harm.
Quantity has little to do with it,
Or at least in my book.

I respect you more for coming clean.

And now I get to say...
TOLD YOU SO!

You ARE stronger than you think :P

*huggles*
I'm still here ANYTIME you need me.

[Gumleaf]

addi, like cody has said, what you have done here is very brave and i thank you for doing it. i am very relieved to hear though that you have exaggerated because i often worry about you. i won't look upon you any differently, in fact, i admire you more for being able to come out and say this. *uncomfortable man hug*

[Random_oso06]

Addi you have much heart to say this and people won't get mad at you did something that makes you different than others you told and your stopping thats great i won't get mad at you my respect won't change for you hey it might even grows

[george]

*uncomfortable man hug*

and because I seem to always like to put humor into things,

HURRAY FOR MAN HUGS!!

[Atonement]

You guys have no idea how relieved I am that no one has raged on me.

[john_gr]

The most important thing is that you've admit it. You could simply not tell anything , as Zephyr said ur stronger than u think .

[just-me]

hmm yes you do have guts for admitting it. at least yuve recognised its somethin thats not a great idea and have admittied and pledged to stop it so good on you.