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Buggahh
November 9th, 2008, 01:58 PM
Ely,
He was my best friend. Every time he took a breath he breathed another lie, a lie that he was okay, a lie that ruined my life. But I don't blame him, not at all. He was the most kindest, caring most perfect guy and on july 23rd 2007 (my sisters birthday) he took his own life because the pain of the bullying had become too much the night before he comitted suicide he kissed my friend, he left her the job of telling everyone, he left us to pick up the pieces and try to rebuild our lives that will never be the same because of the bullies that had nothing better to do than to bully him and it tears me apart to know that all the little snide remarks that people made were the cause of death but you dont see them put that on the death certificate do you cause of death suicide by bullying he didnt mean to well thats what the spiritualist said i guess what im trying to say is that the bullies dont even realise how much impact they have on peoples lives it should be stopped now!

Taz
He was my boyfriend and I was the reason for his death he was going to work one day to get money to come and see me when he was shot he tried to talk them out of it but they didnt listen so again I lost somebody else this again is another thing that needs to stop shootings.. im not going to say how these have affected me how much these boys meant to me because i will only end up breaking down but to those people who are thinking of comitting suicide or self harming i have been there so i know.

Imagine what it would be like for one of your friends or family to have to find you in tears after self harming not capable to clean up the cuts yourself so they have to imagine how it feels having to go to the hospital with you when youve tried to comit suicide having to phone the ambulance each time you try to and then getting beaten up by a relative for helping well... I had to clean up my dads cuts and phoned the ambulance both times the first time our aunt beat up me and my sister the second i spent the night at the hospital with my dad knowing how hurt he was petrified that i was going to loose him too.

Halibut
November 10th, 2008, 05:08 AM
omg wow. I am sorry to hear that. Life is tuff. take what you have experianced in life and make something out of it!

Buggahh
November 10th, 2008, 11:59 AM
I guess that's why i posted it to show people how badly it affects people, you know suicide and all that sort of stuff i made the mistake of self harming, but i never realised how badly it affected the people around me until i had to clean up my dads cuts.

just-me
November 10th, 2008, 05:10 PM
wow. i have alot of respect for you.

Buggahh
November 11th, 2008, 06:42 PM
why? thanks. But im only doing what anyone would do. Arent i ?

UrGoingDown
November 11th, 2008, 07:33 PM
I guess that's why i posted it to show people how badly it affects people, you know suicide and all that sort of stuff i made the mistake of self harming, but i never realised how badly it affected the people around me until i had to clean up my dads cuts.

I am really happy to see that someone understands that when you do something harmful to yourself, it doesn't just affect you.
That it also affects everyone around you.
Not a lot of people realize that, and they continue to do what they want.
You, are lucky that you came to this realization.

EDIT: I really am sorry for your loss, I know how it feels to lose someone important to you....:(

justwondering1995
November 11th, 2008, 10:55 PM
that is awful, i feel your pain. so sorry for your losses

Nihilus
November 11th, 2008, 10:57 PM
Im so sorry about your loss.

northskater110
November 12th, 2008, 01:10 AM
Please. PM me. I have lost many people i know already. Its terrible. Its uncalled for. Talk to me.

I had 3 friends die. One a horse accident, one a brain anuerism (on my b-day), one from drowning (drunk)

JoshDude
November 12th, 2008, 01:55 AM
I'm really sorry for your loss. I have been lucky enough to have never lost a close friend.
I really don't know how I would deal with it if I did lose somebody close to me.

Buggahh
November 12th, 2008, 10:40 AM
I am really happy to see that someone understands that when you do something harmful to yourself, it doesn't just affect you.
That it also affects everyone around you.
Not a lot of people realize that, and they continue to do what they want.
You, are lucky that you came to this realization.

I never realised until I had to clean up my dads cuts. This might sound wrong but now if someone comes to me saying theyre going to self harm or kill themselves i tell them not to, but thats it. Where as i used to spend hours saying dont do it etc, but i came to realise that if they say it to you theyre doing it for attention.

thank you




and thank you to all the people that said sorry for my loss.




And to JoshDude, it's really hard, but I'm lucky that i had the support of my friends and my family to drag me through kicking and screaming. I really didnt want to live without them but i came to realise that if he wanted me to die with him he would of asked me to. Theyre not gone there still in my mind and my heart and that's where theyll remain forever. I was lucky enough to get talking to Ely's friend who told me what he had done and that really helped me, because someone else understood exactly what i was going through, and i was speaking to Taz's best friend, life long friend and friends girlfriend so that helped me through to. I also found that helping other people helped me.