I am fucking worthless.

[Fiending_the_freedom]

god i've never hated someone so much in my entire life.

brendan called me tonight,
Yelling at me,
calling me a whore (again)
just kept repeating it (GO FUCK TEN GUYS YOU WHORE, YOUR A FUCKING WHORE, YOUR NOTHING BUT A WHORE)

And i just kept saying

BRENDAN, YOU RAPED ME.
YOU FUCKING RAPED ME.
YOU RAPED ME BRENDAN.
YOU FUCKED ME UP.

And you know what he said?

"maybe if you had sex with me the last 2 months of our relationship i wouldn't have done what i did"

then called me a whore again and hung up.

THIS IS NO FAIR.
why am I getting yelled at?
HE FUCKING RAPED ME.
VIOLATED MY BODY AND TRUST.
why is this happening to me?

[DarkWingedAngel]

because some guys are jerks and can't respect a girl

[Fiending_the_freedom]

i just checked my facebook.
Brendan left 3 comments on profie pictures,
saying
" IM A WHORE I FUCKED TEN GUYS"
"HI IM A DIRTY SLUT IM FUCKING JAREED RIGHT NOW"

"IM A DRUNK SLUT< THATS WHAT THE GUY IM FUCKING SAID ABOUT ME"

im crying so hard. this is so unfair.
i left him a msg saying he needs to hate me in peace.
because im scaring myself,
and i told him this is the exact reason i carved worthless into my thigh. and htat im on the edge of a mental breakdown.

*EDIT*

i feel so fucking worhtless and alone,
i tried talking about it with two fiends of mine,
they said i was blowing it out of proportion.
i was like
im fucking 16 i should have this shit happen..
i cant talk to anyone about it,
no one will talk to me that knows me and brendan.
Im freakign out.
i cant stop crying.

I"m so scared i'm going to snap and ty to overdose again and it will work.

[Sapphire]

God. I cannot imagine having to face that. *hugs*
Delete him off facebook and block his phone number.
You are not worthless and you shouldn't have to put up with this harrassment. Don't o OD because of what he's said, you can find a guy who'll treat you right. Your life can improve so much. Start looking for the good things by getting rid of him.
Iknow that it sounds easier than it is, but we are here to support you.

[Halibut]

k first of all your not worthless no matter what anyone says.
Delete him out of your life. Tell someone what he did.
He is a asshole and what he did was wrong.