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November 9th, 2008, 12:46 AM
Ok well I have no idea where to start but umm yah is this normal ok this all started when i was six i was with my three cousins and i used to go over to there house a lot... they had some condoms but at that time i had no idea what they were but by time i did and i was like oh w/e but everyone was into the california high at that time back in 2000 so they asked me to do it and i did it i woke up and after that my 10 and 7 year old cousin asked me to pull my pants down and they told me to get up against the wall and i did so then i felt in penis inside my butt and my 7yrs in his and he saud this was "house" it was confusing i didn't know what to do s i just accepted it. this contiued for a while but then all three of the brothers (my cousins) moved into my house with me and when we had to go to bed we always did this all 3 of and switched off with each other and reall got intimate and we were have anal sex at vey young ages like we would give each other oral anal and handjobs just about everytime we were alone in bed. after they moved out it still contiuned except this time i was 8 and they were 9 10 12 while this was back in 2002 the oldest one always was like i give you 2 dollars if u let me do this to you... so we all gave in but as we got older when i was 10 i did this to their little brother only once though by now i was 11 and only 2 of the three brothers did it the middle brother finally got out of the "stage" so one night i rejected the older one and we just went to sleep. Finally the youngest brother stopped but i and the older continued even today we still do it we just did it about 5days ago.....okay now another thing i need help with i am straight during the day it feels like but at night its like a totally gay person like i sleep in the same bed with the middle brother and i get erctions all the time and i feel the need to want to do what we used to i mean i always see him jacking off and i've seen his penis numerous times i catch him all the time jacking off but yah besides that we're both straight i like girls but its weird i just get these gay intentions at night and when i go to masturbate i say yah iam going to jack off to straight porn tonight but i end up jacking off to gay....=( i want to be rid of this habbit but somethings craves me to this but when i do masturbate do straigt porn i feel great...but gulit comes with the gay porn i want out of these gay intentions!!!!! please someone make them stop! i don't want to do this anymore:( i also forgot to metion all this was unprotected sex but yet iam very afraid to tell anyone what goes on...